this soothing feeling.

my fever has subsided. it's now been reduced to cough and leftover headache.
thanks to them for being there for me. =D

i was so tempted to make you my accompanion in the times that i felt so down and helpless. just to hear your voice. just to think that you feel the same way like i do. i have to wake up. i have to stop myself from being so stupid thinking that everything you have said and done would be its reverse. there are times when everything i do, i felt so insecure without you. but trust me. i'm all relieved now. it would be alright. =) i hope you too.

let's just forget all the bitterness and keep the sweet memories.

skip lecture? skip lecture not..

the downs.

cough,, fever,, cough,, headache..
imma sick to the core.

如果有一天

Candid207 + on-did

swensen's earthquake

this is what happens when you got too HIGH~

ru guo you yi tian by fish leong

i have successfully persuaded a few people to read Rich Dad Poor Dad! hah! trust me, it will be totally useful whether or not you have any financial knowledge. 'There is a difference between poor and broke. Broke is temporary, poor is eternal.' Now i find some interest of drowning myself in self-motivational books.

ah~ i can imagine how people fall in love, how they keep re-playing those sweet moments they had with their crush, and how crazy their response and how insane they become, ~.~ haha. actually not only i imagine that, i saw them with my own eyes! =D

are we becoming more ignorant too as we grow up? i always wonder why are adults so cold-hearted and even though their heart ache so much, they just can't afford to be honest towards their own feelings? what's with this hide-and seek games? don't they find it frustrating, don't they always complain that they have had enough stress?

my first clamshell!

my hands are itchy now i am looking forward to play around with the 'ice-cream'!! wait up, im gonna finish my accounting tutorial and have fun. LG ice-cream~

you can always look at the sunlight

report, done!
presentation, done!
although it doesn't go as smoothly as we expected, i was nervous to the core,i thought i could do better next time ^_^
anyway yeah CORE is done!!! done!! done!

dinner at lavender food square. jk and huany recommendation. hmm, yummy. would like to grab some bites there again! =)

de toi a moi

the french lyric just melts in my heart :D
(Jesse Mcartney-just so you know).

this quiz was taken when i was in a fallen-asleep state in QUAN lab. totally accurate.

what's your inner desire?

You want to understand yourself.
There are so many things going on in your mind. You wonder what all of them mean, what you really want, who you really want to be with, etc. You question yourself often. You want to know who you really are, and you want to define yourself. This is a personal journey that most people experience. Keep doing what makes you feel good and what induces the least amount of anxiety and questions. Express yourself in every way possible. You don't need to define yourself, you just need to answer some important questions. It will all come in time.

i should have trusted my heart

call me dumb
call me fool
call me stupid
i have had enough. i am exhausted, for real. all i want is just a simple story. sincere, long-lasting, and honest.maybe we are not meant to be this way. i knew it will happen, i just refused to bring myself to believe it. and thanks to all this stupid hope on you. it's so over. i am wishing u all the best.

☆

what do you think about this skin?
i love this! simple, and cheerful.that's what im gonna be. ^_*

the illusionist.

after sooooo long (i dont know, 5 months?) our plan (i don't know how many times) on swimming together finally worked out. finally. ;D. despite the xxxth me and nez peeped through the glass panel in the room on the crowd in the swimming pool area, commented, giggled, laughed.. out loud, etc.

it was totally soothing and cooling, and freezing of course, we got in the pool around 8pm. i guess that explains why. yah, can say it's my fault, i slept for almost two hours, promised myself to wake up an hour earlier. but luckily, the gonna-rain-sky understoodED me so much. it stopped. xP

after some warming up and lil swims here and there (that's how it's gonna be when you don't practice them for months! ~.~) we went to the smaller pool intend to enjoy some jacuzzi as a form of self-indulgement for the hectic week.

the funny part is when we looked around to find the jacuzzi switch and ended up like fools when the security guard approached us and told us that the switches are near the security post and vending machine. i was totally dumbfounded. how can the switch be so far from the jacuzzi itself? #$%^&!*

so my itchy hands ended up pressing on all the 3 different switches. i was curious what the SPA and bubble switch will be. and so i bet i looked like a 5 year old kid playing in a watery bubbly pool. LOL. and i just realised there's a sauna down here. haha.

there are times that we hoped we didn't say out those things we did. and wished that we had said those things we wanna say. it is just so weird that we can't even control our mind. i guess that is how misunderstanding created. i want you all to know. i love all of you, those who cares for me and those who sacrificed, assisted me and taught me things in life. even though you know, that i can't express myself very well, i adore you. =)
it's not of any occasion, but i want to live my life as if tomorrow will never
come. chances are not coming twice. i don't wanna have regret
anymore.

ohh, i am thinking of changing the blogskin again. yeah, something that looks bigger. =S

on fire

it's been kinda on hiatus for quite a while. not that nothing happened during all this while, blame my reluctance. =P

RP is amazing. the hall, the court, the cultural block. and the hostel. i wish i could stay somewhere like that, sadly TP doesn't have place to accomodate me.
and
yesterday.

it was exhausting out for the whole morning for attending lectures and classes and spent the whole evening till midnight moving stuff from Choa Chu Kang to Woodlands. can you imagine if you came from Tampines all the way? W.O.W it's a wow. hah. anyway, i was glad and all satisfied. despite my aching all over the body, it's been a fun and helpful day. and im waiting for your treat. well i didn't ask for it, u offered it. =)

looking forward to reserve Rich Dad Poor Dad since Nez finished reading them. I hope nobody is on the waiting list. the book seems to be popular. or maybe i should just get the queue online. oh~~~ forget it. the tp website is taking forever to load. especially in my lappy. that should explain why i am not updated with TP happenings. lol.

today.

yeas. i finished my DBIS tutorial. although happened to be referencing from some reliable source, i was done. the first time i ever felt so happy and relieved i completed a class exercise. FYI, been spending 2 straight hours in prill's room for that. of course with the extras, camwhoring and chitchatting blablabla as always.

it should be time to wake up now. projects are starting. assignments. projects. assignments. presentations. reports. term tests. i'll be hearing a lot of those words from now on till the end of semester. better prepare mentally physically and sociologily. =D

yesterday once more

thankfully, the singing was not making my spoilt voice any worse. amazing. maybe i should just scream my lungs out to be fully recovered. it was fun. and HIGH. i forgot when was the last time the class outing has got more than 10 people joining. it was the most successful one so far though.

i've been looking forward to watch the Twilight! =P

if you're still who you used to be,

you should understand the way i feel and think now.

desperation in pursuing happiness

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
where was she? the girl i used to know.
that once knows no fear. shares her thoughts, her smile and laughter, her cheer, her brave?
the spirit, the passion, the love, they are all turning into ashes.
why can't i just get over it? it is over. over.
was i meant to be alone? where are they, who truly cares for me?
they don't understand me. even them, the one i truly love and care,
the closest amongst all the things i have in the world. what else?

++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

is it just my dream? is it a bullshit reality now? it's a freaking reality!

ideology kills

Indonesia executes Bali bombers, radicals call for revenge
refer to article for details.

finally it's being executed, after 5 years. killing people isn't something you can relate with religion and be proud of it, i suppose. ah, i wonder what are these guys thinking.

i can't believe myself in revising the first test of the semester. wow. is it just my dream? haha! but i did it. yeah, i hope my comskill report wasn't that bad. i have a lot of problems with sentence structure. at least i am proud of the effort i've put in. =)

and.... i am kinda curious with my oreo biscuits stock now. i got an email on the threat oreo brings. that-that-faggot thingy inside the biscuit. ok i shall not talk about it. you know i know it's disgusting enough. argh. i feel like throwing the big piles of oreos from my food container!! thanks to the email.

my hands are itchy now i feel like doing something with my hair.haha.
btw photos during asy birthday are up in nez's blog. im not gonna upload the exact same thing then. enjoy the last minutes of your weekend everybody!

signing off.

oyasumi~

homey weekend

today:

it's a weekend. a homey weekend. i have spent my morning and noon in wonderland. it was kinda dreadful today. i felt that i was so deprived of sleep when i have too much rest. and i dreaded even more with the fact that i am staying at home, in my tiny room for the whole day! so this is my result of dreadfulness.

a penguin! yeahl! isn't Yaputa cute? She's my cute accompanion. cup cup*

it's been 2 years

Define: love.

1. a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep attraction
2. unconditional affection with no limits
3. nature's way of tricking people into reproducing
4. to give evrything you have and not eexpect anything in return
5. something that, when returned, will make you the happiest person in the world, and make nothing else matter
6. if you find it, don't let it go
7. if it hurts you, you know what to do.

dia bukan milikku.
hapus aku.
2 years. and that's all it takes.
it keeps fading. so do you.

catch a cold

okay, it's my turn now. my throat is burning. argh, i hate the fact that i am always be the one to catch it last. LAST. when everyone else's recovering form it. argh!
well, every cloud has it's silver lining. my appetite has not been reduced any form =) i am feeling hungry now. today nesty and me are doing spring cleaning for our room, washed all clothes and changed bedsheet. it seemed like my sickness was turned to an unusual hardwork. the room looks much better, at least for this moment.

it's a lazy day, i woke up by phone call around 1pm. sleep again till 2 plus. yeah, i skipped all 3 straight hours of accounting tutorial and lecture. wew i am having a long weekend! (note: see my reasons right in the first line. that's right. i have an excuse :P) and still loads and tonnes of work to do. research and tutorials and everything. starting of h-e-l-l* the undying heaty path begins. ~.~

Some people want it all

But I don't want nothing at all

If it ain't you baby...

the day you went away

last night:

i bet missing the last train of the day piss you off sometimes. i was in changi airport when nesty and me ran down through the long escalator. why does it have to be so long. haiz. it was about 11pm. luckily, we still found the busy buses loading and unloading passengers. i was half asleep when i got on the bus, and the thoughts of dreams was much stronger than my worries that i'd miss the bus stop, telling myself i could wake up on time to change to another bus. and, what you expect least it usually happened. and not for good. we alighted at tampines regional library, for God's sake second stop from the last.

anyway, the night at changi wasn't that bad except for the sardines in bottle atmosphere and the freaking crazy kpop fans. having a star smiling at us and waving excitedly in the handycam was considered a good one, judging for the vigorous move of the fans. never had such a suffocating experience in arrival hall of an airport. i wouldn't wanna go for this kind of thing for the second time. hell no. despite all, i could at least indulge myself in beef meatball spaghetti-hot vanilla meal and a polaroid wallet-sized pic of myself taken by nesty. and i admitted her snap was better than me. :P i just forgot how to position my eyes in the lens after using digital camera all this time.LOL.

today:

nothing special. i saw the swimmin pool as usual. two or three figures with their breaststroke pose, with a man doing push up by the pool. it's gettin dark. the lights are up, yellowish colour in a romantic kind of way.

something interesting. some tips from Phil Vickery:

"Put a pint of milk in a polythene bag with 2 tablespoon of vanilla essence and 2 tablespoon of sugar, seal it well and put that bag in another polythene bag containing ice cubes and 4 tablespoon of salt. Then shake it up for a few minutes and the mil mixture will turn into a soft ice-cream."

a must try! haha.

going off for dinner~

a bigger picture

kinda drown in books lately and it makes me feel a lil' bit nerdy =) i was never really into self-motivation books like what my dad has always been reading. his little library full of successful people's stories never been an interest for me.

is it just my life or is it just my gen that resemble him making me now so in love with what i am reading now? i don't know, i just love it.

one book i recommend you, nesty's been borrowing it from library. Rich Dad, Poor Dad by Robert T. Kiyosaki. 5 star!

i need a new phone!!