Thursday, December 31, 2009
Happy new year in advanced!
bears enough of my overweight rantings, complains, opinions, feelings, pains, silences, awkwardness, bla bla bla just to fill out the space. :D
i decide to keep this blog, and create another one in another place. still thinking whether i should move to tumblr or anywhere else in 2010. ^^
meanwhile people,
ENJOY YOUR TIME AND PREPARATION FOR UPCOMING NEW YEAR!
which is like in less than 24 hours?
be it getting stockup for popcorn and watch TV programme like potato in your living room sofa
or out with the whole bunch of crazy creatures in the most luxurious place you could find
or just two of you, significant for each other by a place that has the most amazing view ever.
seriously, i had no plan for my new year.
for the first time ever.
note to self:
remember to take a look at the envelope you wrote to yourself last year. hah!
end of 2009
ps: prilly the roomie is doing whatever project she is doing, making herself repeat writing 'business' word thrice. her spelling memory seemed to be gone for the moment. maybe it's the blocked nose :D
Glee - True Colours
this is the way love goes,
it is fluid like tides or weather
just when it seems like it's going away,
it comes back
and even if it doesn't, that's okay.
~ The Geography of Girlhood, by Kirsten Smith.
i've been wanting to share the quotes to those who were too disappointed and hurt, for those who fell out of love, or in the midst of hope or anyone. you don't need to have expectations for love. because sometimes we ignore those who love us, adore the ones who ignore us, hurt those who love us, and love the one who hurt us. life is fair enough when you think as it is.
and i wish 2010 will be more amazing than 2009.
just like how tomorrow will be brighter than today.
Saturday, December 26, 2009
making better than worst
that refrains me.
Thursday, December 24, 2009
every piece makes my day
i've learnt that after completing three school reflectve journals within 2 hours for submission the next morning, it is best to back up every file i have. -.=
oh, i can just write another reflective journal here. just to bore you out.
anywayyyy, i got my baby back! yessss!
i have been missing my dear laptop for freaking 2 and a half weeks!
it feels so fresh and clean, like i just got a new one.
ok. maybe not very satisfied with the new and clean hard disk memory i have.
but who cares? it's not like all the memories i had inside are memorable. some too hurtful to bear. i should just erase them off. which i did, cuz i had no choice!
enough for the rantingggggs.
i can finally sleep peaceful tonight and rest since everything got back in peace
tee hee <3
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Saturday, December 19, 2009
to risk is being alive
To weep is to risk appearing sentimental.
To reach out for another is to risk involvement.
To expose feelings is to risk revealing your true self.
To place you ideas, your dreams, before a crowd
Is to risk rejection.
To love is to risk not being loved in return.
To live is to risk dying. To hope is to risk disappointment.
To try is to risk failure.
But risks must be taken, because the greatest hazard
In life is to risk nothing. Those who risk nothing, do nothing, have nothing,
And become nothing.
They may avoid present suffering and sorrow, but they
Will not learn, feel, change, grow, love, or live.
Chained by their fear, they are slaves who have forfeited
Their freedom.
Only a person who risks is free.
The pessimist complains about the wind;
The optimist expects it to change;
And the realist adjusts the sails.”
- William Arthur Ward
Wednesday, December 09, 2009
YAY
i love this feeling <3
test is over over over.
this time round really really over. no more aderv postponed test. =D
get ITPM compilation done by tomorrow and yeah man!
hope that it i can get back my lappy soon. i miss it already.
and i feel so guilty having to use pril's everytime.
although she's studying now. hehe.
good luck and all the best for those still having exam!
Tuesday, December 08, 2009
torture your spontaneous
i had no idea why i was following nez to Dover and looked for asy in her optical shop.
part of it probably breaking free from my studying ritual of staying at home for 2 freaking days. that almost drive me crazy. of course you get eye check up too. :D thanks asy for the service.
so we managed to fulfill our initial goal for studying. so we settled down in the sofa which so far is the most comfortable place and totally forgot about catching train back home. plus the starbucks is 24 hours. we stayed there till morning and finally get home at 3am. i tried my best to ignore the fact that i have 2 tests the next morning.
waking up early in the morning when no one in the house is awake, and you have to wake up from your 3 hours sleep for test. that feeling is dreadful.
but anyway, that was overrrr.
the celebration began. ignoring the fact of a postponed test the coming Wednesday.
fish spa and back massage. the feeling is indescribable. :D
steamboat. my tummy loves it.
how i wish everyday is like that.
(beside having to think of a way to slip my sleeping time in!)
*ps: BaliThai is amazing. lychiee martini chocolate is amazing. life is amazing. (after term test.)
Friday, December 04, 2009
square one
i woke up with nobody at sight, just the sound of heavy pouring and thunder.
since when i got so stuck up with the thunder sound (>.<)
damn. i used to hear my grandma said, as you grow older, there are more things you worry.
maybe it's true.
now i got worried about thunder.
it's 12.50 pm, runch time.
having a warm soupy noodle is the best :D
off for meal!
. . .
2.14pm
so sleepy.
nobody's home yet.
. . .
3.02pm
great. i totally forgotten they are going to shut down electricity for one hour.
maybe i should sleep again.
. . .
6.27pm
woke up an hour ago. good thing light's on.
my mind was on paranormal activity the whole time. =S
they came home. housemates' here! phew.
a timelined friday.
having no school isn't a good thing after all.
thinking too much of irrelevant thoughts.
and it made me feel sick staying home all the time.
Sunday, November 29, 2009
what is worse
Friday, November 27, 2009
FMLIA
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Sunday, November 15, 2009
disappointing
it's knowing that you never take me so seriously.
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Sunday, November 08, 2009
Friday, November 06, 2009
will you be there
Monday, November 02, 2009
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
sleep tight
Friday, October 23, 2009
what is this
Saturday, October 17, 2009
seventeen - jalan terbaik
Seventeen – Jalan Terbaik
semua telah berakhir
tak mungkin bisa dipertahankan
hanya luka jika kita bersama
karna jalan ini memang berbeda
* semua yang terjadi tak akan kembali
jalan kita memang berbeda
namun hati ini tak ingin kembali
reff:
ku yakin kita akan bahagia
tanpa harus selalu bersama
tak perlu disesali
tak usah ditangisi
hanya luka jika kita bersama
karna jalan ini memang berbeda
repeat *
repeat reff
ku yakin ini jalan terbaik
walau kita tak lagi berdua
tak perlu disesali
tak usah ditangisi
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
walking away?
Sunday, October 11, 2009
fix the pieces
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Mell loves you
Friday, September 11, 2009
stitched heart
♥ ♥ ♥
♥ Happy birthday Huanie ♥
Tuesday, September 08, 2009
down
Monday, September 07, 2009
inspired
Sunday, September 06, 2009
alcoholic scar
Friday, September 04, 2009
will time turn and tell?
Tuesday, September 01, 2009
teh peng
♥ ♥ ♥
Saturday, August 29, 2009
rattling on and on
Friday, August 28, 2009
dreadful night
finally, reached home after cabbing from queenstown to harbourfront to send friz off.
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
post exam euphoria
Monday, August 24, 2009
Friday, August 21, 2009
love and time
Credit~mjagiellicz
Love was the only one who stayed.
When the island had almost sunk, Love decided to ask for help.
Richness was passing by Love in a grand boat. Love said,
"Richness, can you take me with you?"
Richness answered, "No, I can't. There is a lot of gold and silver in my boat. There is no place here for you."
Love decided to ask Vanity who was also passing by in a beautiful vessel. "Vanity, please help me!"
"I can't help you, Love. You are all wet and might damage my boat," Vanity answered.
Sadness was close by so Love asked, "Sadness, let me go with you."
"Oh . . . Love, I am so sad that I need to be by myself!"
Happiness passed by Love, too, but she was so happy that she did not even hear when Love called her.
Suddenly, there was a voice, "Come, Love, I will take you." It was an elder. So blessed and overjoyed, Love even forgot to ask the elder where they were going. When they arrived at dry land, the elder went her own way. Realizing how much was owed the elder,
Love asked Knowledge, another elder, "Who Helped me?"
"It was Time," Knowledge answered.
"Time?" asked Love. "But why did Time help me?"
Knowledge smiled with deep wisdom and answered, "Because only Time is capable of understanding how valuable Love is."
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
love papaya milk
Monday, August 17, 2009
corrine may is loved
tomorrow's goal: waking up early.
Thursday, August 13, 2009
pekanbaru i miss you
Sunday, August 09, 2009
decolorised
Saturday, August 08, 2009
love your breeze
Tuesday, August 04, 2009
Monday, August 03, 2009
in the midst of your love breeze
pril is depressing now. over her lost thumbdrive. my arm is painful, she pinched me.
Friday, July 31, 2009
live update
let's see. "lotte" is staring at me from my bed right now. i feel so nervous. not because of the stare, but i can't see the keyboard properly it's so dark.
french lesson this morning is a 10 mins consultation about our role play. breaking record. i woke up one and a half hours earlier to type the dialogue out from our written script.
felt completely good today after seeing people getting lost control last night in Ice-Cold. haha. nice feeling anyway. it's good to see some other crazy side of your classmates :D apart from the fact that one or two of them may turn a bit violent.
IT free access lab is seriously more peaceful and cozy compared to business' school. can't expect the noise to die down. not even a minute. it's totally not-a-me-place. if nata can reply me faster if she's available, i am so gonna be outta here as fast as possible.
pril's doing project with her group member. still waiting. waiting still. nata please call me soon. like now?
14:11 PM
i was thinking of a live update journal. but it would be too long and draggy to read. never mind. some random thoughts. getting ready for lunch. more update later.
Monday, July 27, 2009
monday blue
maybe that's why winged Cupid is painted blind.
it's not like there's of any occasion. of love. or anything. in fact more and more people are getting sick nowadays. please take care of yourselves. get well soon people :)
i believe we all have our own views on life.
and maybe this is just me.
when you keep thinking over how contradicting a mind can be, it gets rather confusing at times. there are some thoughts in you that you couldn't help thinking over and over again because it makes no sense to you. or it makes you sick and hurt. or it brings back some unpleasant playback in the back of your head. shitty.
anyway, Monday blue is over. waking up at 8.50am for 9 morning class is a total mess. it doesn't feel good at all. so no matter how insomniac i get tonight, im not gonna turn on my laptop again. i will be sleeping before 1! yeah, made up my mind. (>.<)
because even though you are one day further
from the last time you saw them,
you are one day closer to the next time you will.
maybe not now. i changed my mind. shall wait for the next Valentine, let's wait for the anniversary. i still can't take my eyes off the skin. too many memories.
Saturday, July 25, 2009
freeze the time
i couldn't concentrate on anything else. it's way too distracting.
Caught The Haunting that ended at midnight. If only i wasn't late to catch 7.45 movie slot and made the rest wait (>.<) i wouldn't be scaring myself on the way home and on the way to my dream. I literally jumped when i heard the slightest sound in the dawn. But no regret watching it!
oh maybe a lil' bit regretful, seventh month is coming.
The hamsters need a proper home. I want to hold and touch them again, it reminds me of the hamster couple friz used to have. man, i used to love them so much! i miss them. hope nata's hamz this time will be well taken care of.
Thursday, July 23, 2009
lovely day
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
thoughts tearing out
i found out that everything in this world is never enduring. and i believe in it.
nor happiness neither pain. it was too devastating, too suffering, too suffocating to find out that despite every effort you put in to brighten someone's day, you can't do it unless the person changes his/her mindset.
today,
i found out too, that despite how overwhelming your emotion is, whether it is good or bad, you should learn to control it. in front of others, especially in front of yourselves.
today,
i realized that there is absolutely nothing can turn out as perfect as what you dream of. life always has its own way of making things turn out like what it is to be, so why wait till it all turns so perfect? grab the chance and go with the flow of life, cuz never will it come.
today,
right this moment i see a lot of despicable eyes that can't satisfy its thirst of temptation. human's mind indeed freaks me out.
last n i g h t,
i dreamed of something similar. that makes me jump out. it scared the hell out of me. not ghost. not murderer or serial killer. not monster. just human.
if i reconsider it once again, Edmond, i don't want to have super memory like that woman too. i can't even find my happiness yet without that special abilities.
Saturday, July 18, 2009
shoutheart
seriously, it makes me feel so helpless. it's frustrating.
i don't know why but i am definitely not that fantastic (>.<)
Friday, July 17, 2009
the lady in love
here's some list out to show off (hah! i bet it's for today only >.<)
1. wake up 8 int the morning. (with more than 3 alarms set up and snoozings)
2. having breakfast. i repeat, breakfast, not brunch!
3. swim (wow, i actually do pay money to swim after i move out from a place where
4. plus night walk from safra to home! (although it's because we have no choice after missing the last bus 8)
still still, im having a good day i feel so good! :D i love this morning's french class too.
it's gonna be a better one tomorrow.. sleep well..^^
Thursday, July 16, 2009
you'll see what you need to see
psychology makes me imagine no further how scary human personality can be. sometimes it hurts me not realizing what some people truly think and feel, at the same time i am scared myself cuz after i get to know what their mind is like, i don't feel like getting any deeper anymore. indeed complicated.
do traumas change people that much?
how can one pretend something that affects his/her life so much never happened at all, and keep it to themselves, appearing to be all strong and steadfast when they are not?
gawd, i have no idea at all. the lesson, it doesn't seem to give me guidance~
well well well,
enough of that, it's gonna boil my blood even more.
i really feel like getting some workout recently. with people around me battling with their sickness, i don't wanna be sick, because there is no point being sick and staying, rotting at home with only TV and computer as accompanion. that would freaking bored me out..
after today's long day, 2 hours of french class tomorrow sounds exciting and short! haha.. i am looking forward to enjoy the weekend. C'est bon!
"Nobody on his death bed wished he'd spent more time at the office."
do something to your life if you want it to be the best thing you lived. ^^
Sunday, July 12, 2009
thinking of you
once you've had a taste of perfection
like an apple hanging from a tree
i picked the ripest one, i still got the seed
you said move on, where do i go?
i guess second best is all i will know
thinking of you..
katy perry