Tuesday, December 30, 2008

back to routine

spending the last moments before school reopens watching shows and tiring my eyes away, i can barely focus on the words i am typing now. who cares, i just felt good. and come to think of it, we have 2 days time before the countdown of New Year, yeah~ i'm welcoming it with all my heart. haha! i barely looked back at what had happened, but it really happened too fast, all the things that occured. and and, i shall save my wish till the last seconds of 2008 comes ^O^

join me in slumberland party!
five and a half hours before class starts. ugh.. -.=

staring moonlight by the window

it's getting late
yet she's still sitting by the window
gazing up to the gloomy sky
stretching out both her arms
waiting..
for her arm to reach the stars
for the moon to be by her side
till the shining ray fall upon her room.

she knew it wouldn't be there..
the stars won't reach her hand,
the moon won't keep her company by her side,
but one thing she knew for sure,
morning will come soon..

telling her that no matter how faithful she waited each night by the window,
the moon and the stars just stay above in the dark sky, never will it be reached by her.
and she fell asleep, filling up her head with "Why, why and why"..

Monday, December 29, 2008

to parents, from children

Dear parents, listen to what your child has to say. Maybe you haven't realized it, what your child truly wants to tell you, with this poem.

DON'T SPOIL ME

I know quite well that I ought not to have
all that I ask for. I'm only testing you.

DON'T BE AFRAID TO BE FIRM WITH ME
I prefer it. It makes me feel more secure.


DON'T LET ME FORM BAD HABITS
I have to rely on you to detect them in early stages.


DON'T MAKE ME FEEL SMALLER THAN I AM
It makes me feel stupidly “big”.


DON'T CORRECT ME IN FRONT OF PEOPLE IF YOU CAN HELP IT
I'll take much more notice if you talk quietly with me in private.


DON'T MAKE ME FEEL THAT MY MISTAKES ARE SINS
It upsets my sense of values.


DON'T BE TOO UPSET WHEN I SAY “I HATE YOU”
It isn't you that I hate but your power to thwart me.


DON'T PROTECT ME FROM CONSEQUENCES
I need to learn the painful way sometimes.


DON'T TAKE TOO MUCH NOTICE OF MY SMALL AILMENTS
I am quite capable of trading on them.


DON'T FORGET HOW QUICKLY I AM GROWING UP
It must be very difficult for you to keep pace with me, but please do try.


DON'T MAKE RASH PROMISES
Remember that I feel badly let down when promises are broken.


DON'T FORGET THAT I CAN'T EXPLAIN
MYSELF AS WELL AS I WOULD LIKE
This is why I am not always accurate.


DON'T TAX MY HONESTY TOO MUCH
I am easily frightened into telling lies.


DON'T BE INCONSISTENT
That completely confuses me and makes me lose faith in you.


DON'T PUT ME OFF WHEN I ASK QUESTIONS
If you do you will find that I stop asking and seek my information elsewhere.


DON'T TELL ME MY FEARS ARE SILLY
They are terribly real and you can do much
to reassure me if you try to understand.


DON'T EVER SUGGEST THAT YOU ARE PERFECT OR INFALLIBLE
It gives me too great a shock when I discover that you are neither.


DON'T EVER THINK THAT IT IS BENEATH
YOUR DIGNITY TO APOLOGIZE TO ME
An honest apology makes me feel surprisingly warm towards you.


DON'T FORGET THAT I LOVE EXPERIMENTALLY
I couldn't get on without it, so please put up with it.


DON'T NAG
If you do I shall have to protect myself by appearing deaf.


DON'T FORGET THAT I CAN'T THRIVE
WITHOUT LOTS OF UNDERSTANDING & LOVE
But I don't need to tell you that, do I?


Author: Mildred Neville

Saturday, December 27, 2008







never let separation brings it down

you can consider this reunion a successful one, not a disappointment for organizing it after all. the unplanned and unexpected has always been surprisingly fun and crazy, wilder. we went to ktv, and i screamed my lungs out to fit in with their high pitch voices, wew it really tired me out. too bad, we can't finish the rest of the list chosen, and a lot more songs that brings out our true colour =D but overall, it was great, i love it!

next station, catching lil' Nyonya at ren's place with the rest, ended up spent a pyjamas' party overnight and messing around with
poker cards while biting up McDelivery french fries with lots of curry, mayo and chili sauce. the Dare & Dare part, made me a real insane and total fool! argh~ i couldn't mention it, but i was totally abused victim!! no strangers, no public spaces, but the thoughts of pril's stupid idea itself drive me nuts. the whole gamewas filled with laugh-till-you-drop or giggle-till-you-stomach-pain. owh it cramped my stomach, indeed. thanks for making my day, fab girls!

pics will be uploaded s o o n...
kinda exhausted now.


off for a nap~

Friday, December 26, 2008







Santa Claus coming down to town

What a lovely morning, bathed and offered a strawberry-milk treat from ren, bus-ed home.
just reached my lil' room, i found nez still sleeping so soundly and it seemed like she's not really conscious yet when i talked to her. -.=
by the way,

i'm wishing all of you a lovely..

Merry Christmas!

i know it's a bit late to wish everyone now, it's better than no? haah! anyway, i'm sure we all still feel the atmosphere of giant socks and lollipops hanging along the streets of Orchard Road. if you are the type who hates crowds, or rather overcrowded spot i suggest you to get some other more private places like friend's house, or void deck? you can have your own reunion rather than celebrating if you are not into the religious event, carolling or stuff like that.

come to think of that, i spent my Christmas working. watching those rich people, from the wealthy golfer-like, simple but elegant couple, cameraman-tourist, or just-some-rich-spoilt-kid was not a bad idea at all, i got a chance to crack my brain and take my time to sort up all my thoughts.

spent the night at ren's place eventually, got myself indulged in unagi rice burger and seafood toji set, getting engaged and listening to people's thoughts, behaviours, experiences and life, this Christmas taught me a changing lesson...

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

keeping pace with the trackless lane

Happy Birthday Edmond!

learnt to play mahjong today. aih, what should i say? am i the slow one, or am i indeed the target of bullies? =P it's kind of fast to catch game but needs strategies to play, and i was completely blur when it somes to whose turn ~.~ apart from that, i enjoy the windy place in char house, it just made me want to sleep. i got a chance to watch the lil Nyonya too! haah!




it hurts me most when i know you are no longer fighting to keep this heart.

Monday, December 22, 2008

r e m i n i s c e and t r u t h

haven't seen such glowing face from pril coming out from a hair salon for a long time, since she usually complain about how weird her fringe looks after cutting it short. we took a trip down all the way to braddell to reconcile with her 'dearest' aunty hairdresser. it's been so long since i went there, and it somehow reminds me of how we used to spend time in the hostel and neighbourhood. you mention it, KFC, McDonalds, food court, food store, watson, hair salon, spa, bakery, clinic, cheers, mrt, bus stop, nice weather, shady tree, peaceful atmosphere, everything it sounds so puuuuurfect. i lived fully satisfied there.

then, there's bishan. we went there and toured arund the whole junction 8 where we used to hang around whenever we felt like. just like our second home. i loved staying @Bishan 8 the most. you can swim in the pool or sauna-ing away in the midnight like nobody's business and no security guard will come and get you out of the water, or stop you from doing stupid things, i can even climbed in from the fences when i forgot to bring the tap card. there is a favourite place i used to chat with some mates, the neon-lit room with some sofa and nice aromatherapy smell! i can stay there the whole day just to clear up my thoughts, or read my O level exam stuff! it is so different, from the current place i am staying here, it gets boring each day, it's making me sick, sick, sick! i wanna get outta here.

uhmmm.. planning to sleep early tonight. but i guess it's gonna fail, again. sleep around 4am almost every day, staying up for playing games and surfing around the net, sounds so wasting away my precious sleep. i can't help it it's just too addictive. =P

anyway, i found this bulletin while thinking of logging in my friendster account just to check for updates.
it's about love opinion from some 5 to 10 years old child, it truely amazed me!

WHAT IS THE PROPER AGE TO GET MARRIED??

"Eighty-four! Because at that age, you don't have to work anymore, and you can spend all your time loving each other in your bedroom." (Judy, age 8)

WHAT DO MOST PEOPLE DO ON A DATE??

"On the first date, they just tell each other lies, and that usually gets them interested enough to go for the second date." (Mike, age 10)

WHEN IS IT OKAY TO KISS SOMEONE??

"You should never kiss a girl unless you have enough bucks to buy her a big ring and her own VCR, 'cause she'll want to have videos of the wedding." (Jim, age 10)

THE GREAT DEBATE: IS IT BETTER TO BE SINGLE OR MARRIED??

"It's better for girls to be single but not for boys. Boys need somebody to clean up after them!" (Lynette, age 9)

CONCERNING WHY LOVE HAPPENS BETWEEN TWO PARTICULAR PEOPLE

"No one is sure why it happens, but I heard it has something to do with how you smell. That's why perfume and deodorant are so popular." (Jan, age 9)

"I think you're supposed to get shot with an arrow or something, but the rest of it isn't supposed to be so painful." (Harlen, age 8)

"One of the people has freckles and so he finds somebody else who has freckles too." (Andrew, age 6)

ON WHAT FALLING IN LOVE IS LIKE

"If falling in love is anything like learning how to spell, I don't want to do it. It takes too long." (Leo, age 7)

ON THE ROLE OF GOOD LOOKS IN LOVE

"Beauty is skin deep. But how rich you are can last a long time." (Christine, age 9)

CONCERNING WHY LOVERS OFTEN HOLD HANDS

"They want to make sure their rings don't fall off because they paid good money for them." (Dave, age 8)

CONFIDENTIAL OPINIONS ABOUT LOVE

"Love will find you, even if you are trying to hide from it. I have been trying to hide from it since I was five, but the girls keep finding me." (Bobby, age 8)

"Love is foolish -- but I still might try it sometime." (Floyd, age 9)

these are kids nowadays! wow, kids and their thoughts on love. what can i say??? ~.~
anyway busway, i gotta end it here. get some entrance ticket to wonderland. Alice, i'm ready to see you!

Sunday, December 21, 2008

the late entries not late yet


the meal saver all-in-one for the day. brunch-dipper.
recently,my thoughts are all about food most of the time. is this a result of deprivation?

maybe i just started to see the real you?

Saturday, December 20, 2008

upgrading housework skill

i kinda glad i made it, my plan for swimming. i did delay it from early morning to dinner time. and i finished my first round of washing too! it's just so, W.O.W. i can't find any more powerful words to describe how relief and proud i am. =P although it means another ironing work, i am getting more and more confident that i can be a good housewife in the future. haah!

and so with the staying at home day, it finally earn some good points for my chores work, which mean i really am lazy to step out of the house to buy some meal so i got cheeseburger meal delivered at my doorstep. you should know how agonizing my waiting for food was. for an hour of extreme hunger because i didn't eat for more than half a day.


i thought i could do this. and i realised i haven't gotten any stonger than before.

Friday, December 19, 2008

the unrequited

today:

plan to participate the blood donation drive in Dhoby Ghaut today. and it was sad. totally disappointing. they rejected my blood! T.T not that i have AIDS, or i was too unfit or i have some alien blood type flowing in my body. the reason is even simpler than anything i can guess, i am underweight! and it is by two kg! two! argh!

so went to vent my disappointment by having two portions of Indo Kitchen Nasi Uduk with ren and her bf. back to her house and had few hours nap to restore my energy, although i didn't manage to give out any blood i still need rest! played the games in Facebook waiting for pril to bring our food.

pril joined afterwards, she ran all the way from the bus stop to the apartment just to watch the Lil Nyonya and found out that she can only enjoy the last half an hour! she is still happy as she is anyway! =D




yesterday:


hair-cut! it's just a trim, i promised i won't cut it s h o r t till next year!



touring around aimlessly in the land of manmade Christmas atmosphere.



Chu Hi Calpis, the new addiction!



my wish upon the star. what would that be?
to be honest, i am confused too, like many people do.
you want this, you want that, you never get satisfied. one after another just pop up from your mind. but one thing i know for sure, people wish for changes. changes for good. well, at least most people do.

a longer life, accompanion, fame, peace, love, money. all the thing you can find in the world. it reminds me of what Edm told me. about the 5Cs Singaporeans are dying for. Cash. Condo. Car. Credit Card. and he told me he just need the 1st C, Cash and you can have the rest. everything else. but can money exactly buy love? the love you will be dying to have, the love that will do anything and sacrifice for you. maybe you will say yes, but why does it sound so impossible to me?

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Japanese treat

went to play pool with ren today. before that, we had brunch at Waraku, where we ordered the Lunch special thinking that it's really worth it. it really is, because the meal consists of a choice of ramen or soba and a side dish with a significantly and considerably big portion. and so we decided to have chawanmushi and drinks to go along.

although yesterday's seafood platter meal was literally fulfilling, this time round, i made up my mind not to touch any Japanese food for the whole week. another thing is that me finding out there is a special sauce for sashimi and it is different from the usual sushi sauce. overall, i still love the Jap style chili powder.

the missing piece


the Manhattan Platter


it's polished up! =P

finally, i have the chance to watch Twilight after all my friends told me how they are so crazy over that guy, Edward. -.= i was the one who got so excited to watch a vampire show in the first place! =S

had a brunch cum dinner in MFM. as usual, we always choose the 'oh, fantastic and bombastic' ones for dinner since we haven't eaten for the whole day, so we decided to order 'Manhattan Seafood Platter for two'. it's worth spending for the meal, i need supper no more! the size are
really huge. when they say for two, they really mean two big and tough eater, seriously. i even ordered a Manhattan mocha, which really made my stomach all stuffed up. nes chose the light Earl Grey as she's suffering from the irritating runny nose. and she kept complaining, because it's so unglam. haah!

anyway, it's just too mouth-watering to think about it, when the guy spray up some heat to melt up the cheesy mayo sauce for the prawn's topping! yummy! all i can think is to put them into my mouth! the most i love were the prawn and the soft fish. i can still taste it.. taste it~ haha!

we did have some difficulty finishing it up, i kept eating the lemonade, and trying to squeeze it out and put it in my warm mineral water, because they only provide lemonade in cold ones. the embarrassing part is a waitress saw me squeezing the juice of the lemonade which i took from the platter itself, looking all-pathetic. so i decided to cover up my embarrassment by asking one of the waitress.

me: "Excuse me miss, can i have a piece of lemon?"
waitress: (paused, and amazed) "A... piece?"
me: "Yeah yeah a piece, can I?" (doubted because i thought she mind)
waitress: "You mean, a slice?"
me: (shocked, embarassed) "Yes, absolutely. Thank you" (this is the best part because i still remember thanking her!)

and the covering up means making me more embarassed! argh~ okay, so i just kept all quiet and not demanding anything else. so a lady sitting beside me, which i suspected of being a property agent kept muttering about the service there with her friend and finally enquiring her credit card redemption with the manager during payment. she gave a fussy impression to me. and the most uncomfortable thing was the way she kept looking at how we ate!

During the final part of our meal, the lady signaled me and offered me a 10% discount for the meal if i would like her to pay using her credit card and pay her cash later. so without giving it a second thought, i agreed! haah! who wouldn't want? so i told nes and i can sense some delight and reluctance at the same time. lol. that lady is indeed weird because not long after she said this, she just left without a word. without paying us with her card. without 10% discount. wth, did she just say for fun? or because what we ordered was much more delicious than hers? -.=

but one thing i learnt, it is true that lemonade indeed increase you eating appetite.

i was too afraid of showing it because i know it's not working anymore for both of us. there is nothing i can do for the moment, isn't it?

Monday, December 15, 2008

the rage of a reporter

Bush being thrown shoes at? hah, you should take a look at that.

click here to view the video

another freaking day

it's just so freaking when you stay out the whole night with some freaks and doing freaking things. =P haha. we went to yeah-orchard, again. but this time round it's kinda like reunion, most of us came. so, we went to Suki sushi, where i can't believe myself eating the most plates. is my appetite bigger now, or just theirs become less and less? Argh, to think of the latter, it is just too pressurizing. =S

anyway it was uber stupid and dumb, making fun of each other and forming stupid alliance to bully each other, it was kinda childish, and warm. you wouldn't want to know what's happening in the streets i bet, because it is just too-embarrassing-for-me. (~.~)


it's homemade video. Happy advanced Birthday, Nutellaaaa! =P
(i am sorry if you see 2 videos there, i haven't figured out how to get rid of the duplicate yet. please forgive me!)

i must say that the outing somehow makes me reminisce the past. those friggin' retarded days where we can just call 6235 3535 just the sake of satisfying our supper time with pizzas and chicken wings, or making french toast and DIY pasta, cooking instant noodles with extra egg and extra hot chili when we ran out of money. those moments where we were just too scared to sleep alone after the horror flicks we made ourselves to watch, thinking that it's just a movie. in which we ended up squeezing ourselves in those poor small beds from another room. the screams, the act-like-hysteric during O level, the laugh-till-drops, the fun, the giggles.. i missed it all.

i believe, there is only one kind of happiness. to Love, and be Loved.

Sunday, December 14, 2008

finding joy in life's lil pleasures


the Christmas air!


hey my twinnie ghostly appearance.


the narcisstic ones.


we simply are spoilt for choice!


the feminist and casualist. i wonder if there is such word. =P


loving the moments.



it's gotta be the dress!

today:

it's a fun day. yeah yeah, i know i forgot my wallet! i still have ez-link card with me! and i got the things i wanted!! there are actually more, just UNaffordable. lol. aih, it's never been satisftying enough. but im quite glad with the ones i bought i walked till my legs are numb i can't feel anything like it's hanging in the air.

and indulging myself in the nasi-uduk meal made me feel so homey. T.T
it reminds me of how i want to be home asap. it's kinda bringing past memories and those childish childhood. ah, what am i talking about? it should be childish.

although i am not going back this Christmas, i guess i will be flying back for Chinese New Year. nevermind, for in this case, opportunities will come find you. many times.

Saturday, December 13, 2008

the art of making

wow, i finally finished a video. it's amazing how fast i can make a movie and not rushing for assignment deadline! lol. i am ready to hit the sack now ~.~

Friday, December 12, 2008

let freedom speaks

a long to-do list is waiting for me! in fact i would be much happier if the list can go longer =D. this afternoon after the last paper, the ten of us went for board-gaming @mind's cafe, it was freak, i was laughing most of the time at the dumbest actions one can do. the truth and dare was the craziest. i bet the waiters there have been so numb with the stupid things and acted along.

took some photos, and went home thinking of swimming where the truth was i can't help myself not to hit the tempting bed and shut down for few hours! so i woke up in the middle of darkness and found my dear roommate was also exhausted from her 2 exams just like me. maybe the energy was over-absorbed by those exam papers just like me. okok, shall not blog nonsense here, i was just too happy to be able to reunite with my freedom again! haah!

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Mama, Belikan Aku BH.
mama, i always love u ^^

Tuesday, December 09, 2008

stand by me

From the award-winning documentary, "Playing For Change: Peace Through Music", comes the first of many "songs around the world" being released independently. Featured is a cover of the Ben E. King classic by musicians around the world adding their part to the song as it travelled the globe. This and other songs such as "One Love" will be released as digital downloads soon; followed by the film soundtrack and DVD early next year.




Stand by me.

applause. to the effort they show. to the voice they have gathered. and to the meaning it brought.

and and and..it's been a while since i really blog. today's OOPG test was totally messed up. just what was i thinking, seriously. the concentration was just not there. my mind was flying around, thinking of everything but the paper.

tomorrow and the day after it, and two days after today. i'd better make the full use of the time to make the best of it. i can't-oops, i mean how can i figure out the most interesting way to make myself drown in the book, in what they so-called studying? ah, it's really not my forte. but what can i do now? go with the flow. yah, the best.

should think of ways of indulging myself during the holiday. maybe it helps. let's see what can i do? YEAH, i should go fix my clamshell, the damn phone is not working. only after i used it for 3 weeks or so? argh~ it's not my fault. maybe i should make myself appear in youtube and slam it to pieces like what the guy did to his macbook. that way i may get a new phone as a compensation from the company like the guy did?

Monday, December 08, 2008

term test

4 days, 4 papers. and you are done. please please please, stay through it don't give up. it will be holidays in a blink of an eye. ghanbatte!

currently engaged in Marie Digby tracks. i know it's kinda old songs but i just fall in love with these songs the moment i listen to them:

1. Darius - colour blind
2. Dido - don't believe in love
3. One Republic - say

that's all for now. i am still on the process of digesting how Java works. ~.~

Sunday, December 07, 2008

life goes on


well, do i look like im having temperature as hot as 39.6


she doesn't want me anymore =(

edamame. oishii ne..^_*


nesty's bazaar snacks


apple candy! =P


how nice being rich is!


took out of boredom, no idea why i include it here, though.


all i want for Christmas, is YOU!
why ain't the Snow City move to Orchard instead?

went to Japanese association this morning. i realised nowadays im somehow abit involved in Jap thingy. haha. above are recent pictures. yeah, you know i am not in the mood to blog right now. haa!

Wednesday, December 03, 2008

wait for you

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that
you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go?
You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed
but you wouldnt give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more than i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you wanted to be

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do
I'll wait for you

It's been a long time since you called me
You got me feeling crazy
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is & it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.

Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough
... Elliot Yamin