five and a half hours before class starts. ugh.. -.=
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
back to routine
five and a half hours before class starts. ugh.. -.=
staring moonlight by the window
yet she's still sitting by the window
gazing up to the gloomy sky
stretching out both her arms
waiting..
for her arm to reach the stars
for the moon to be by her side
till the shining ray fall upon her room.
she knew it wouldn't be there..
the stars won't reach her hand,
the moon won't keep her company by her side,
but one thing she knew for sure,
morning will come soon..
telling her that no matter how faithful she waited each night by the window,
the moon and the stars just stay above in the dark sky, never will it be reached by her.
and she fell asleep, filling up her head with "Why, why and why"..
Monday, December 29, 2008
to parents, from children
DON'T SPOIL ME
I know quite well that I ought not to have
all that I ask for. I'm only testing you.
DON'T BE AFRAID TO BE FIRM WITH ME
I prefer it. It makes me feel more secure.
DON'T LET ME FORM BAD HABITS
I have to rely on you to detect them in early stages.
DON'T MAKE ME FEEL SMALLER THAN I AM
It makes me feel stupidly “big”.
DON'T CORRECT ME IN FRONT OF PEOPLE IF YOU CAN HELP IT
I'll take much more notice if you talk quietly with me in private.
DON'T MAKE ME FEEL THAT MY MISTAKES ARE SINS
It upsets my sense of values.
DON'T BE TOO UPSET WHEN I SAY “I HATE YOU”
It isn't you that I hate but your power to thwart me.
DON'T PROTECT ME FROM CONSEQUENCES
I need to learn the painful way sometimes.
DON'T TAKE TOO MUCH NOTICE OF MY SMALL AILMENTS
I am quite capable of trading on them.
DON'T FORGET HOW QUICKLY I AM GROWING UP
It must be very difficult for you to keep pace with me, but please do try.
DON'T MAKE RASH PROMISES
Remember that I feel badly let down when promises are broken.
DON'T FORGET THAT I CAN'T EXPLAIN
MYSELF AS WELL AS I WOULD LIKE
This is why I am not always accurate.
DON'T TAX MY HONESTY TOO MUCH
I am easily frightened into telling lies.
DON'T BE INCONSISTENT
That completely confuses me and makes me lose faith in you.
DON'T PUT ME OFF WHEN I ASK QUESTIONS
If you do you will find that I stop asking and seek my information elsewhere.
DON'T TELL ME MY FEARS ARE SILLY
They are terribly real and you can do much
to reassure me if you try to understand.
DON'T EVER SUGGEST THAT YOU ARE PERFECT OR INFALLIBLE
It gives me too great a shock when I discover that you are neither.
DON'T EVER THINK THAT IT IS BENEATH
YOUR DIGNITY TO APOLOGIZE TO ME
An honest apology makes me feel surprisingly warm towards you.
DON'T FORGET THAT I LOVE EXPERIMENTALLY
I couldn't get on without it, so please put up with it.
DON'T NAG
If you do I shall have to protect myself by appearing deaf.
DON'T FORGET THAT I CAN'T THRIVE
WITHOUT LOTS OF UNDERSTANDING & LOVE
But I don't need to tell you that, do I?
Author: Mildred Neville
Saturday, December 27, 2008
never let separation brings it down
next station, catching lil' Nyonya at ren's place with the rest, ended up spent a pyjamas' party overnight and messing around with poker cards while biting up McDelivery french fries with lots of curry, mayo and chili sauce. the Dare & Dare part, made me a real insane and total fool! argh~ i couldn't mention it, but i was totally abused victim!! no strangers, no public spaces, but the thoughts of pril's stupid idea itself drive me nuts. the whole gamewas filled with laugh-till-you-drop or giggle-till-you-stomach-pain. owh it cramped my stomach, indeed. thanks for making my day, fab girls!
pics will be uploaded s o o n...
kinda exhausted now.
off for a nap~
Friday, December 26, 2008
Santa Claus coming down to town
just reached my lil' room, i found nez still sleeping so soundly and it seemed like she's not really conscious yet when i talked to her. -.=
by the way,
i'm wishing all of you a lovely..
Merry Christmas!
i know it's a bit late to wish everyone now, it's better than no? haah! anyway, i'm sure we all still feel the atmosphere of giant socks and lollipops hanging along the streets of Orchard Road. if you are the type who hates crowds, or rather overcrowded spot i suggest you to get some other more private places like friend's house, or void deck? you can have your own reunion rather than celebrating if you are not into the religious event, carolling or stuff like that.
come to think of that, i spent my Christmas working. watching those rich people, from the wealthy golfer-like, simple but elegant couple, cameraman-tourist, or just-some-rich-spoilt-kid was not a bad idea at all, i got a chance to crack my brain and take my time to sort up all my thoughts.
spent the night at ren's place eventually, got myself indulged in unagi rice burger and seafood toji set, getting engaged and listening to people's thoughts, behaviours, experiences and life, this Christmas taught me a changing lesson...
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
keeping pace with the trackless lane
learnt to play mahjong today. aih, what should i say? am i the slow one, or am i indeed the target of bullies? =P it's kind of fast to catch game but needs strategies to play, and i was completely blur when it somes to whose turn ~.~ apart from that, i enjoy the windy place in char house, it just made me want to sleep. i got a chance to watch the lil Nyonya too! haah!
Monday, December 22, 2008
r e m i n i s c e and t r u t h
then, there's bishan. we went there and toured arund the whole junction 8 where we used to hang around whenever we felt like. just like our second home. i loved staying @Bishan 8 the most. you can swim in the pool or sauna-ing away in the midnight like nobody's business and no security guard will come and get you out of the water, or stop you from doing stupid things, i can even climbed in from the fences when i forgot to bring the tap card. there is a favourite place i used to chat with some mates, the neon-lit room with some sofa and nice aromatherapy smell! i can stay there the whole day just to clear up my thoughts, or read my O level exam stuff! it is so different, from the current place i am staying here, it gets boring each day, it's making me sick, sick, sick! i wanna get outta here.
uhmmm.. planning to sleep early tonight. but i guess it's gonna fail, again. sleep around 4am almost every day, staying up for playing games and surfing around the net, sounds so wasting away my precious sleep. i can't help it it's just too addictive. =P
anyway, i found this bulletin while thinking of logging in my friendster account just to check for updates. it's about love opinion from some 5 to 10 years old child, it truely amazed me!
WHAT IS THE PROPER AGE TO GET MARRIED??
"Eighty-four! Because at that age, you don't have to work anymore, and you can spend all your time loving each other in your bedroom." (Judy, age 8)
WHAT DO MOST PEOPLE DO ON A DATE??
"On the first date, they just tell each other lies, and that usually gets them interested enough to go for the second date." (Mike, age 10)
WHEN IS IT OKAY TO KISS SOMEONE??
"You should never kiss a girl unless you have enough bucks to buy her a big ring and her own VCR, 'cause she'll want to have videos of the wedding." (Jim, age 10)
THE GREAT DEBATE: IS IT BETTER TO BE SINGLE OR MARRIED??
"It's better for girls to be single but not for boys. Boys need somebody to clean up after them!" (Lynette, age 9)
CONCERNING WHY LOVE HAPPENS BETWEEN TWO PARTICULAR PEOPLE
"No one is sure why it happens, but I heard it has something to do with how you smell. That's why perfume and deodorant are so popular." (Jan, age 9)
"I think you're supposed to get shot with an arrow or something, but the rest of it isn't supposed to be so painful." (Harlen, age 8)
"One of the people has freckles and so he finds somebody else who has freckles too." (Andrew, age 6)
ON WHAT FALLING IN LOVE IS LIKE
"If falling in love is anything like learning how to spell, I don't want to do it. It takes too long." (Leo, age 7)
ON THE ROLE OF GOOD LOOKS IN LOVE
"Beauty is skin deep. But how rich you are can last a long time." (Christine, age 9)
CONCERNING WHY LOVERS OFTEN HOLD HANDS
"They want to make sure their rings don't fall off because they paid good money for them." (Dave, age 8)
CONFIDENTIAL OPINIONS ABOUT LOVE
"Love will find you, even if you are trying to hide from it. I have been trying to hide from it since I was five, but the girls keep finding me." (Bobby, age 8)
"Love is foolish -- but I still might try it sometime." (Floyd, age 9)
Sunday, December 21, 2008
the late entries not late yet
Saturday, December 20, 2008
upgrading housework skill
and so with the staying at home day, it finally earn some good points for my chores work, which mean i really am lazy to step out of the house to buy some meal so i got cheeseburger meal delivered at my doorstep. you should know how agonizing my waiting for food was. for an hour of extreme hunger because i didn't eat for more than half a day.
Friday, December 19, 2008
the unrequited
plan to participate the blood donation drive in Dhoby Ghaut today. and it was sad. totally disappointing. they rejected my blood! T.T not that i have AIDS, or i was too unfit or i have some alien blood type flowing in my body. the reason is even simpler than anything i can guess, i am underweight! and it is by two kg! two! argh!
so went to vent my disappointment by having two portions of Indo Kitchen Nasi Uduk with ren and her bf. back to her house and had few hours nap to restore my energy, although i didn't manage to give out any blood i still need rest! played the games in Facebook waiting for pril to bring our food.
pril joined afterwards, she ran all the way from the bus stop to the apartment just to watch the Lil Nyonya and found out that she can only enjoy the last half an hour! she is still happy as she is anyway! =D
yesterday:
hair-cut! it's just a trim, i promised i won't cut it s h o r t till next year!
Chu Hi Calpis, the new addiction!
my wish upon the star. what would that be?
to be honest, i am confused too, like many people do.
you want this, you want that, you never get satisfied. one after another just pop up from your mind. but one thing i know for sure, people wish for changes. changes for good. well, at least most people do.
a longer life, accompanion, fame, peace, love, money. all the thing you can find in the world. it reminds me of what Edm told me. about the 5Cs Singaporeans are dying for. Cash. Condo. Car. Credit Card. and he told me he just need the 1st C, Cash and you can have the rest. everything else. but can money exactly buy love? the love you will be dying to have, the love that will do anything and sacrifice for you. maybe you will say yes, but why does it sound so impossible to me?
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Japanese treat
although yesterday's seafood platter meal was literally fulfilling, this time round, i made up my mind not to touch any Japanese food for the whole week. another thing is that me finding out there is a special sauce for sashimi and it is different from the usual sushi sauce. overall, i still love the Jap style chili powder.
the missing piece
the Manhattan Platter
it's polished up! =P
finally, i have the chance to watch Twilight after all my friends told me how they are so crazy over that guy, Edward. -.= i was the one who got so excited to watch a vampire show in the first place! =S
had a brunch cum dinner in MFM. as usual, we always choose the 'oh, fantastic and bombastic' ones for dinner since we haven't eaten for the whole day, so we decided to order 'Manhattan Seafood Platter for two'. it's worth spending for the meal, i need supper no more! the size are really huge. when they say for two, they really mean two big and tough eater, seriously. i even ordered a Manhattan mocha, which really made my stomach all stuffed up. nes chose the light Earl Grey as she's suffering from the irritating runny nose. and she kept complaining, because it's so unglam. haah!
anyway, it's just too mouth-watering to think about it, when the guy spray up some heat to melt up the cheesy mayo sauce for the prawn's topping! yummy! all i can think is to put them into my mouth! the most i love were the prawn and the soft fish. i can still taste it.. taste it~ haha!
we did have some difficulty finishing it up, i kept eating the lemonade, and trying to squeeze it out and put it in my warm mineral water, because they only provide lemonade in cold ones. the embarrassing part is a waitress saw me squeezing the juice of the lemonade which i took from the platter itself, looking all-pathetic. so i decided to cover up my embarrassment by asking one of the waitress.
me: "Excuse me miss, can i have a piece of lemon?"
waitress: (paused, and amazed) "A... piece?"
me: "Yeah yeah a piece, can I?" (doubted because i thought she mind)
waitress: "You mean, a slice?"
me: (shocked, embarassed) "Yes, absolutely. Thank you" (this is the best part because i still remember thanking her!)
and the covering up means making me more embarassed! argh~ okay, so i just kept all quiet and not demanding anything else. so a lady sitting beside me, which i suspected of being a property agent kept muttering about the service there with her friend and finally enquiring her credit card redemption with the manager during payment. she gave a fussy impression to me. and the most uncomfortable thing was the way she kept looking at how we ate!
During the final part of our meal, the lady signaled me and offered me a 10% discount for the meal if i would like her to pay using her credit card and pay her cash later. so without giving it a second thought, i agreed! haah! who wouldn't want? so i told nes and i can sense some delight and reluctance at the same time. lol. that lady is indeed weird because not long after she said this, she just left without a word. without paying us with her card. without 10% discount. wth, did she just say for fun? or because what we ordered was much more delicious than hers? -.=
but one thing i learnt, it is true that lemonade indeed increase you eating appetite.
Monday, December 15, 2008
another freaking day
anyway it was uber stupid and dumb, making fun of each other and forming stupid alliance to bully each other, it was kinda childish, and warm. you wouldn't want to know what's happening in the streets i bet, because it is just too-embarrassing-for-me. (~.~)
it's homemade video. Happy advanced Birthday, Nutellaaaa! =P
Sunday, December 14, 2008
finding joy in life's lil pleasures
the Christmas air!
hey my twinnie ghostly appearance.
the narcisstic ones.
we simply are spoilt for choice!
the feminist and casualist. i wonder if there is such word. =P
loving the moments.
it's gotta be the dress!
today:
it's a fun day. yeah yeah, i know i forgot my wallet! i still have ez-link card with me! and i got the things i wanted!! there are actually more, just UNaffordable. lol. aih, it's never been satisftying enough. but im quite glad with the ones i bought i walked till my legs are numb i can't feel anything like it's hanging in the air.
and indulging myself in the nasi-uduk meal made me feel so homey. T.T
it reminds me of how i want to be home asap. it's kinda bringing past memories and those childish childhood. ah, what am i talking about? it should be childish.
although i am not going back this Christmas, i guess i will be flying back for Chinese New Year. nevermind, for in this case, opportunities will come find you. many times.
Saturday, December 13, 2008
the art of making
Friday, December 12, 2008
let freedom speaks
took some photos, and went home thinking of swimming where the truth was i can't help myself not to hit the tempting bed and shut down for few hours! so i woke up in the middle of darkness and found my dear roommate was also exhausted from her 2 exams just like me. maybe the energy was over-absorbed by those exam papers just like me. okok, shall not blog nonsense here, i was just too happy to be able to reunite with my freedom again! haah!
Rekomendasi:
Dari Aimee di Bangka, Koki-Kompas Kita.
artikel indah dan menyentuh!
Mama, Belikan Aku BH.
mama, i always love u ^^
Tuesday, December 09, 2008
stand by me
applause. to the effort they show. to the voice they have gathered. and to the meaning it brought.
and and and..it's been a while since i really blog. today's OOPG test was totally messed up. just what was i thinking, seriously. the concentration was just not there. my mind was flying around, thinking of everything but the paper.
tomorrow and the day after it, and two days after today. i'd better make the full use of the time to make the best of it. i can't-oops, i mean how can i figure out the most interesting way to make myself drown in the book, in what they so-called studying? ah, it's really not my forte. but what can i do now? go with the flow. yah, the best.
should think of ways of indulging myself during the holiday. maybe it helps. let's see what can i do? YEAH, i should go fix my clamshell, the damn phone is not working. only after i used it for 3 weeks or so? argh~ it's not my fault. maybe i should make myself appear in youtube and slam it to pieces like what the guy did to his macbook. that way i may get a new phone as a compensation from the company like the guy did?
Monday, December 08, 2008
term test
currently engaged in Marie Digby tracks. i know it's kinda old songs but i just fall in love with these songs the moment i listen to them:
1. Darius - colour blind
2. Dido - don't believe in love
3. One Republic - say
that's all for now. i am still on the process of digesting how Java works. ~.~
Sunday, December 07, 2008
life goes on
well, do i look like im having temperature as hot as 39.6
apple candy! =P
how nice being rich is!
took out of boredom, no idea why i include it here, though.
all i want for Christmas, is YOU!
why ain't the Snow City move to Orchard instead?
went to Japanese association this morning. i realised nowadays im somehow abit involved in Jap thingy. haha. above are recent pictures. yeah, you know i am not in the mood to blog right now. haa!
Wednesday, December 03, 2008
wait for you
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that
you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go?
You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed
but you wouldnt give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more than i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?
So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you wanted to be
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do
I'll wait for you
It's been a long time since you called me
You got me feeling crazy
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is & it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.
Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough