Tuesday, September 30, 2008

they hurt you like nobody's business

Some people come into our lives and quickly go.
Some people move our souls to dance.
They awaken us to new understanding with the passing whisper of their wisdom.
Some people make the sky more beautiful to gaze upon.
They stay in our lives for awhile, leave footprints on our hearts, and we are never ever the same.

Some people just think that they can change your world. They did, and you simply love the way they treat you. And then they turned your world upside down and change their heart as easy as changing their appetite. and here you are. getting sick and angry and upset and you are still unable to get over it. you can't bring yourself to hate them. you feel so weak and hopeless. you are greatly, deeply disappointed, and they know nothing about it. nothing. they will think you are the one who change, because you don't treat them the way you used to. they made it as excuses to avoid you. and they happily move on with their life. they know absolutely nothing about your pain.

There's a lot more things to learn than just passions and love. I need a certainty. it's utterly hurtful. i can no longer read what you are thinking.


read it at your own risk.
don't like it. please don't read.

Sunday, September 28, 2008

pictures of you

PICTURES OF YOU.."
This is the clock up on the wall
This is the story of us all
This is the first sound of a new born child
before he starts to crawl

This is the war that's never won
This is the soldier and his gun
This is the mother waiting by the phone
praying for her son
Pictures of you
Pictures of me
Hung up on your wall for the world to see


Pictures of you
Pictures of me
Remind us all of what we used to be

There is a drug that cures it all
Blocked by the governmental wall
We are the scientists inside the lab just waiting for the call
This earthquake weather has got me shaking
Inside I'm high up and dry

Pictures of you
Pictures of me
Hung up on your wall for the world to see

Pictures of you
Pictures of me
Remind us all of what we used to be

Confess to me
Every secret moment
Every stolen promise you believe
Confess to me
All that lies between us
All that lies between you and me
We are the boxes in the ring
We are the bells that never sing
There is a title we can't win

no matter how hard we must swing

thank you mom and dad

Thank you so much, for the little things you have done. I may not appreciate it then. You taught me life lessons. Since the day I left home, I have been making mistakes and disappointed you. Forgive me, Mom, Dad. I don't promise never to be flawless, but I'm trying my best to make you proud of me. I'm all grown up. I want you to be happy too, like you always do. Mom, today is the 18th years ever since you let me see this world. I am glad to be your child, your daughter. The day you carried me out of the chaos on May that year has proven me you have got nothing that separates your sacrifices and your instinct as a mother. This love, I never could explain.

I love you.

Friday, September 26, 2008

the turning point

here we go again. another weird dream.kept waking up in the midst of darkness. signs of anything? hope that it ain't happen tomorrow. please. *praying*
ironic~ today's the first time i woke up as early as 9am for the whole week. perfect 9 0'clock. that makes the letter of the day. 'L'.

as unbelievable as it is, nearly half of the Americans believe in existence of guardian angels. i thought Hollywood supernatural shows are merely entertaining and not as a guide for their personal life.

tonight.
Ace hardware, here we go. :D




late postings:


(1) love u Mom! (2) congrats for the 2nd place, sistaa! XD

always be my baby

We were as one babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine

Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die

You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I ain't gonna cry no
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave girl
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably you'll be back again
Cause ya know in your heart babe
Our love will never end no
I know that you'll be back girl
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder
I know that, you'll be right back, babe
baby believe me it's only a matter of
time

always be my baby-david cook

Thursday, September 25, 2008

nighmare again

i had another nightmare. yes, again. this time round in the zoo. my gosh what is really happening to me! i woke up in the middle of my own scream and my mother's who was nagging me. it was quite frantic. i woke up at 12 noon. something i don't usually do.

i found few altenatives ultimately, to not let myself bored to death here. will be having dentist appointment and some exercises. jess, we couldn't afford to cancel our hang out this time round! :X

and tomorrow is the opening of F1 i believe. ah~ missed the chance. i hope pril could show something from F1 to me when she comes back. and when will she come back? please get some goodbye kiss from beloved clearwater and come meet your friend who's in desperate need of companion here.



when this mind is flaching back the memories of you.

this mind tells me you are such an unforgettable person.

anger and hatred wouldn't last for us.

was it you, or was it just me thinking we'll be okay this way

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

movie

have been watching What happens in Vegas for the second time in a day. when the cute Jack proposing to Cameron Diaz that is my favourite part. his eyes speak the language of love.. aih~ he's sweet. :p also when Jack's mate snatches Joy's girlfriend bread during breakfast buffet. "If i could kill someone with my mind, it would be you." *hilarious*

i am, so dying to meet you. :X

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

a new routine

finally i got my watches fixed! i knew i've made a right choice to fix it down here, much cheaper. :] just that if i postpone it for few more days it may be totally broken and can't be fixed anymore, according to the guy. lucky me.

with dad and bro, went down to Ace hardware after dinner for some home tools and supermarket to shop for daily needs. and, next station Fountain! wew, i miss the peach-melba there :p the feeling is heavenly.

on the way down to the exit, we bumped into dad's mate, where the wife looked shocked when she saw me. she kept pinching my cheeks and caressing my hair. -.= although the last time we met was 4 years ago, she should be aware that i can grow up, too! my gosh, she still treats me like a lil' girl. i kinda miss her self-way-too-exposed style though.

btw, found a new caffeine fix in some RD mags. it's different from the usual latte, it's a caffeine-rich brew made form the leaves of a South American holly shrub. it is said to provides stimulating effect of coffee minus the 'jitterness'. taste? stewed hay? hmm.. ~.~ i don't mind trying. xp

word of the day:

gauche (read: GOASH)

meaning: tactless, lacking social polish.
eg: She reacted to his gauche questions by simply changing the subject.

Monday, September 22, 2008

pictures


yoohooo* my room



bear2..

another one

the connection here is burning my head. -.=
now i am starting to feel how i depend so much on internet! technology can made us insane sometimes. i wonder 20 years from now, are we gonna be marrying an artificial intelligence. if it really happens, then the phrase Love is Blind is undeniably true. lol.

today reflects me so much, spending most of the hours in the wonderland, sleeping in a full air-con room during hot weather is the most comfy thing, indeed. caught a movie, D-war after dinner. Kinda nice, but felt that the ending part should be improved. xp

and tomorrow, is the election day for the leader of province. wow, i got a voice, which means that i can vote. the weird thing is i haven't even register fo signing up my KTP, they give me a voting voice. haha. confused, on who to vote. have not been keeping track on these things lately ~.~


Cinderella walked on broken glass.
Sleeping Beauty let a lifetime pass.
Belle fell in love with a hideous beast,
Jasmine chose a poor man,
Ariel spent her life on land.
It's all about the smiles and tears; love is about facing your biggest fears.

Friday, September 19, 2008

bored

have been spending times packing up and moving stuff these few days. phew, finally. now that we settle down, i am still not used to this new environment. not because there are fewer people staying around, or it's a new estate, i just can't stand the flight of mosquitoes blood-partying in my house at midnight! who can? i am so having vengeance on those insects. argh. planning to stock up mosq-repellants as number 1 must-do-list.

anw, besides that, seems like i've nothing better to do. sadly, there' only few people i can whom i can reach and get to meet up. reunions are so impossible. nobody is left behind. people are flying all over the world. they don't seem to like their hometown anymore. some studying overseas and other national universities, others working all over the world. loneliness is killing me!

lalala~
planningplanning.
planning for killing this boredom.
awesome.
can't think of anything rite now.
gonna have dinner first~

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

fish therapy


fish therapy? sounds abit *ahemp* haha. but u gotta try it. this is so fun.you will love the feeling of tickleness when the fish mess with your skin. apart form that, the fish eat dead skin from your body. i was quite surprised to find out that they have it here in one of the shopping malls. and trust me, you won't get bitten! you'll love it! it is like having pedicure =)

it's available at Sentosa for Singapore! =)
and
buat Pekanbaru: Mall Ciputra Seraya Lt.1 Rp.50.000,- per org, durasi 20 menit

moving to new house today.
so damn excited~

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

comment on prediction

i hope it is not happening. can't imagine my day of moving to a new house and earthquake in the same day. yeahs, let's see what can happen tomorrow. ~.~
please i have alot of things to do still, i still wanna be alive, i haven't repent yet (praying hard.......)

the prediction

Subject: Fw: GEMPA 17/09/08
From: nelly.rusli@indofood.co.id
Date: Thu, 11 Sep 2008 11:27:04 +0700

Prayer is the only answer. Only God knows
Kita berdoa yu semoga hal ini tidak terjadi,kalopun terjadi semoga sudah dipersiapkan antisipasinya biar tidak
banyak korban.Amin.


Culiah wrote: Gak tahu akan terjadi
atau tidak sebaiknya banyak berdoa saja......


Subject: [thelightmagz]
"Informasi GEMPA 17 September 2008 Indonesia Menunggu Datangnya Gempa Dahsyat lebih Dari 9 SR. Baru saja diberitakan oleh TV CNN pada tanggal 17 September 2008 tentang Datangnya Gempa Dahsyat yang lebih atau sekitar 9 SR disekitar Sumatra Barat. CNN melakukan peninjauan khusus bersama pemburu Gempa dari California Technology Institute.

Pemburu gempa ini adalah geoloog dari CalTech yang meneliti semua gempa2 yang muncul di Indonesia terutama yang terakhir ini yang katanya mengakibatkan kerak bumi melipat sehingga menimbulkan gempa sekitar 7 SR lebih baru2 ini ................................................"

Drs. Ir. Anton A. Nangoy, MBA *

Monday, September 15, 2008

home sweet home

yay! im back..my home sweet home. hehe. now then i get the chance to set up internet over here. just 3 days, yet so many things happen. from good, shocking to bad news. complete! i kinda need some digestion for my brain to receive so many at a time.

and my car! it ran out of petrol yesterday, in the middle of the road! the mechanic found out that the petrol indicator was not even working! haiz~ we are stuck in arengka, luckily few stones away from the new house. a friend offered a lift back to the house, and we got to cancel whole appointments for the day. sad. T.T

today is sooo tiring and physically sucking all my energy! moving those things ain't easy, i just moved to a rented room few months ago, and now moving big piles of thang to a new house! argh..killing me.

apparently, the new house is kinda nice, i love the way they decorated it. and most importantly, my room, i love the curtain, thanks Mom! =)

Saturday, September 13, 2008

changi

finally, i am free from the boredom and wall-staring in the room! im flying back pekanbaru. see u guys! prilly now staring at what i am writing, i feel so nervous. ~.~ ahaha. yeahs, last minute she agreed to take the same flight as me, ended up the whole relatives of her fly back. at least, i won't feel lonely :p

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Happy Birthday to Huany! =)
hope u having fun. your present coming up later, after i return okay. hehe.

Tuesday, September 09, 2008

not for the weak heart

yesterday proves that i am not in a category of a strong heart. ~.~ that's another day of putting my heart into risk. after the stock challenge discussion in school, next two things were reverse bungee jumping and watching PHOBIA.can't describe it, haha. so many things to comment about, but these two are definitely must MUST to try. Phobia is cool. 4 horror flicks in one show, 1st is a cellphone story, i almost lost the storyline too engrossed in every detail of the scenes :P there are some about revenge and accident, third one is the crackiest and , fourth one is the coolest! =D for me, 5 out of 5 rating star! i never brag so much about a movie but this one is a MUST watch.


some shots in the video. bungeeey..



peace!


never enjoy a view in this kind of angle


man, i have been trying to do this kind of fido dido hairstyle, i never succeed and look at my hair! aww~

thanks alot for you guys, it has been a fun day. thank you for the early present! =D

Saturday, September 06, 2008

always be a good day

quite a few days didn't post. haha. too many things to post i guess. the outings and lots and lots of events. my feet is aching again, because of yesterday. haha. but i kind of like what we wear. the businesslike-dress-code :P

and for the outing photos, i guess you can find it at chen huan blog.lol. i guess i don't have to upload anymore. you gotta take a look at the shots we took at esplanade roof terrace, huany's lion hair while jumping and my face as if being punched sideways as the result of her lioness aura. ah~ that's the best way i can describe it. lol.

anyway today there's this thing called "60 secs of fame" organised by city harvest. somehow similar to one minute of fame-kids central. the only difference is the participants are mostly teenagers. and im quite fascinated by the 13-year-old-boy showing off is talent by playing away with his YOYO in different unique movement, and a guy that memorised 50 handphone numbers. he remembered them well! there's dances and singing too. quite entertaining!

it's almost 10 by the time we enjoyed our KFC meal and took some fun pictures afterwards.
the most unexciting part is going home. boonlay to bedok! awh, definitely not a good one. i've to change from bus to MRT and back to bus again.

tomorrow tomorrow, i am stressed uo for tomorrow.
firstly, because i have to get up early. dawn. not even morning. ~.~
secondly, nesty is leaving! argh~ you are still young, nes. why do you leave me so soon? this life is still long way to go for me.... T.T
ahemph* i'm sorry i mean she is leaving for Singapore. she's going back to Padang! maybe for a month or so..

and guess what? tomorrow i need to wake up and go back to boon lay for NTU by 8.45am! the dumbest thing i would ever do. huany, you're right.i guess we should just buy some sleeping bags and spend our night there.

i haven't even close my eyes and not sure whether i am having a nightmare, well thanks for tomorrow, i have already had one.

i am off for now.
grateful to have you sharing my life :)

Friday, September 05, 2008

i don't get why you put me in a difficult position. our distance keeps growing,
or is this how you want it to be? then choose, me or your damn selfishness.

Tuesday, September 02, 2008

edited snaps!

here are some of the photos edited =D
apologize for posting late. hehe..


the craziness ~.~


creepily fun! :D
(credited to: char and weggie for one of the photos)


have lotsa fun with u guys :)


..melL..^^

the dumbys *.*


alvy b'dae!