boredom attack

there's just something bothering. that prevents me from sleeping. i hate it when i don't feel like sleeping and surfing nothing useful like this. worst is doing nothing, like now.

i decided to accept the PR~

the angel in disguise, that enters my heart.

remnants

nuttalisa~ (late pics)

nut-tali-the-bridesmaid..

...September 28th, 2008...

black forest? nyumz..^^

mom's cooking..

bro..

week of turmoil and peace

it's been a week of schooling. lots of ups and downs. but overall it's alright i guess. the thoughts of holding on is so distinct still, just that there's a difference of how the feeling has subsided. i was too tired to worry about what has occured or what will happen. or what is going on. maybe this is the best way, maybe this should be done earlier. but imissyou. damn. i can't tell my heart not to look forward for your call or every sign of your presence.

and this is just not so good. my stomach keeps showing signs of gastric and severe pain. although it's the last place i wanna go, i should go to consult a doctor some other time if it is acting out again.

Today:

having accounting class for 3 straight hours in such early morning. i got myself lost in the sea of business people to find the tutorial class in panic having thoughts of late and caught in unfamiliar atmosphere. and the fact that the tutor himself was not punctual somehow made me relieved. it was kinda messy when we formed project group, i just got to know my members in 5 mins time when the tutor announced us to get to talk and "mix around in 5 mins". -.= it was kind of weird though. there are few classmates named yiling, yingxing, yiting. if i'm not wrong. tried my best not to get confused between three of them.

went out with huany and one of her church friends Shan shan (i hope it's the correct spelling :D) after few hours of messing around in school with c207.
shopped till drop, laughed till my leg turned jelly..that was fun and totally entertaining, thanks guys! and the Marvelous cream French sweet parfait was soooooo nyummy baby! hahah..
i ♥ dark chocolate ^_*

you change for two reasons.

either you learnt enough that you want to;

or you've been hurt enough that you have to;;

back to routine

this morning my mind was just too excited to get packed up and headed to airport! woke up around 5am local time, getting ready for 8 30 flight. despite that, it's so heavy to think of leaving the town. the many times i felt so reluctant to leave. the first time i felt like grabbing the stewardess' arm and let me get out of the plane. haiz. back to reality. the plane took off, and arrived singapore around 10.20am. my fever has not faded completely. cough and flu. i made it sound like the worse trip ever. ~.~ maybe it is.

so, here i am. in my bedroom in lovely clearwater, after the whole day of familiarising myself again, hanging out and chatting around, and window shopping.

a week to school reopening. hope i get to spend some nice time for these few holy-days.

life's little circuit

Life changes every minute of every day. You lose friends & you gain friends. You realize your friend wasn’t ever really your friend, & that person you used to hate can make a really good friend. You look for love. You find love & you lose love. You realize all along that you’ve been loved. You laugh, you cry. You laugh so hard that you cry. You do this, you do that. You really wish you hadn’t done that. You then learn from that & are glad that you did. You have your ups & you have your downs. You see good movies & you see bad movies. You wonder if your life is just one big movie.You look at others & wish you were them. You then realize who they are & are glad that you’re you.You love life and you hate life. In the end, you just find yourself being happy to be living life, no matter what is thrown at you.

can't do anything

credited:photobucket.

When life just don't go the way you want it to be. Don't let it disappoint yourself. Don't go against it, for you have no way going against nature.Go with the flow.

Forgive and forget. :)

third week home

it's been my 3rd week here. have been spending lots of eventful times with the big family. all with different atmosphere each time, of reunion, of meet-ups, of dinner :) the laughs, giggles, shouts even the children cries. somehow, it always cheer me up. although people constantly change, the faces or the characters, home never does. the most comfortable place i ever know for 18 years. now i'm feeling reluctant leaving home, as if afraid of missing the thoughts of being pampered i never have before. :P

can't really believe my 18th birthday's over. i thought i could be more mature than i am now. life indeed has its own way. never could we predict.

and for the people who has been supporting me through tough times and helping me in making life's big decisions. i want to thank all of you for always being there for me :)
Battista once said, "The greatest weakness of most humans is their hesitancy to tell others how much they love them, while they are alive. i don't wanna have regrets anymore.

it's been raining for days. raining again now. ~.~ i wonder when it will stop. and my "sista" is happily swimming away ignoring mom's nagging about thunder blablabla. i would rather not joining sista bathing in rain and chlorine solution. avoiding mom's powerful speech is satisfying enough! Xp

had night snacks with dad mom and bro last night as usual in VID (expected, sista requested..) chicken fried in some special seasoning (idk what it is called) for flavouring fruit i guess. it's utterly delicious. =) and my dad offered me and bro heineken. haha! that's even more delicious.

dad: "the fried chicken will go best with this beer, try it."

mom: "they are looking at us. what do they think of us when the father teach his children how to drink beer." (sounds utterly worried)

dad: "what's wrong with that? don't care so much about it, you want some?"

and then they continued on and on. haha. that was cute.

anyway, there's so much things to learn still. :)

我知道你我都没有错
只是忘了怎么退后
信誓旦旦给了承诺
却被时间扑了空
我知道我们都没有错
只是放手会比较好过
最美的爱情回忆里待續

if only i could transform those memories of us.