Happy new year in advanced!

and it's been three years old, this blog.
bears enough of my overweight rantings, complains, opinions, feelings, pains, silences, awkwardness, bla bla bla just to fill out the space. :D

i decide to keep this blog, and create another one in another place. still thinking whether i should move to tumblr or anywhere else in 2010. ^^

meanwhile people,

ENJOY YOUR TIME AND PREPARATION FOR UPCOMING NEW YEAR!
which is like in less than 24 hours?

be it getting stockup for popcorn and watch TV programme like potato in your living room sofa
or out with the whole bunch of crazy creatures in the most luxurious place you could find
or just two of you, significant for each other by a place that has the most amazing view ever.

seriously, i had no plan for my new year.
for the first time ever.

note to self:
remember to take a look at the envelope you wrote to yourself last year. hah!

end of 2009

Condolences to Mr. Ex-President Abdurrahman Wahid a.k.a Gus Dur.

May you rest in peace and be accepted by God's side.

thinking of giving it a try. have been missing padang cuisine! (>.<)

looking forward to get those pair of armani 'recycled & modified' spectacles :D

thanks alot Asyiah! for bringing me to your school. and optics!

today officially felt like the first day of school even though had a lab test yesterday. it still felt like holiday. anyway, i should be in holiday now. because it IS a holiday season. and after tomorrow's 2 hours of noon lesson it would be the end of 2009.

man, that sounds nostalgic. 2009 felt like forever to me. since i saw it ending soon, that sentence

does not apply anymore. and this would probably be the last post for 2009.

anywayyy, i won't go sentimental any further.

thinking of how my eyes were so dry these few days thanks to Hai Pai Tian Xin. that drama seriously squeezed my tears out. enough of tears. i have never been so addicted in Taiwanese drama before. the last time i paid so much attention to a show was korean's Antique bakery. that drama is seriously beyond hilarious!

ps: prilly the roomie is doing whatever project she is doing, making herself repeat writing 'business' word thrice. her spelling memory seemed to be gone for the moment. maybe it's the blocked nose :D

Glee - True Colours

this is the way love goes,

it is fluid like tides or weather

just when it seems like it's going away,

it comes back

and even if it doesn't, that's okay.

~ The Geography of Girlhood, by Kirsten Smith.

i've been wanting to share the quotes to those who were too disappointed and hurt, for those who fell out of love, or in the midst of hope or anyone. you don't need to have expectations for love. because sometimes we ignore those who love us, adore the ones who ignore us, hurt those who love us, and love the one who hurt us. life is fair enough when you think as it is.

and i wish 2010 will be more amazing than 2009.

just like how tomorrow will be brighter than today.

making better than worst

"sometimes there's nothing to say. sometimes silence expresses more than words. picking up the phone, dialing a number, it can do more damage than good, but humans are afflicted with this obsessive desire to talk things to death, so we make things worse by trying to make them better."

that refrains me.

every piece makes my day

in short, my recent days had been fulfilling. to me it was meaningful enough. life wasn't as dull as expected. despite the hard and long hour work. despite the boiling blood waiting for HP hotline to pick up my call. despite freezing bus journey that caused me sitting numb. i still love everything that happen.

i've learnt that after completing three school reflectve journals within 2 hours for submission the next morning, it is best to back up every file i have. -.=

oh, i can just write another reflective journal here. just to bore you out.

anywayyyy, i got my baby back! yessss!
i have been missing my dear laptop for freaking 2 and a half weeks!

it feels so fresh and clean, like i just got a new one.
ok. maybe not very satisfied with the new and clean hard disk memory i have.
but who cares? it's not like all the memories i had inside are memorable. some too hurtful to bear. i should just erase them off. which i did, cuz i had no choice!

enough for the rantingggggs.
i can finally sleep peaceful tonight and rest since everything got back in peace
tee hee <3

note to self

http://weheartit.com/entry/308419

to risk is being alive

To laugh is to risk appearing a fool.
To weep is to risk appearing sentimental.
To reach out for another is to risk involvement.
To expose feelings is to risk revealing your true self.
To place you ideas, your dreams, before a crowd
Is to risk rejection.
To love is to risk not being loved in return.
To live is to risk dying. To hope is to risk disappointment.
To try is to risk failure.
But risks must be taken, because the greatest hazard
In life is to risk nothing. Those who risk nothing, do nothing, have nothing,

And become nothing.
They may avoid present suffering and sorrow, but they
Will not learn, feel, change, grow, love, or live.
Chained by their fear, they are slaves who have forfeited
Their freedom.

Only a person who risks is free.
The pessimist complains about the wind;
The optimist expects it to change;
And the realist adjusts the sails.”

- William Arthur Ward

YAY

yessss sah back to freedom mode.
i love this feeling <3

test is over over over.
this time round really really over. no more aderv postponed test. =D
get ITPM compilation done by tomorrow and yeah man!

hope that it i can get back my lappy soon. i miss it already.
and i feel so guilty having to use pril's everytime.
although she's studying now. hehe.

good luck and all the best for those still having exam!

silence is the best

Screaming and saying fuck a lot doesn't really get your point across.

Sometimes silence is the most violent option to choose.

torture your spontaneous

spontaneous things can make you dread a lot sometimes. (>.<)

i had no idea why i was following nez to Dover and looked for asy in her optical shop.
part of it probably breaking free from my studying ritual of staying at home for 2 freaking days. that almost drive me crazy. of course you get eye check up too. :D thanks asy for the service.

so we managed to fulfill our initial goal for studying. so we settled down in the sofa which so far is the most comfortable place and totally forgot about catching train back home. plus the starbucks is 24 hours. we stayed there till morning and finally get home at 3am. i tried my best to ignore the fact that i have 2 tests the next morning.

waking up early in the morning when no one in the house is awake, and you have to wake up from your 3 hours sleep for test. that feeling is dreadful.

but anyway, that was overrrr.
the celebration began. ignoring the fact of a postponed test the coming Wednesday.
fish spa and back massage. the feeling is indescribable. :D
steamboat. my tummy loves it.
how i wish everyday is like that.
(beside having to think of a way to slip my sleeping time in!)

*ps: BaliThai is amazing. lychiee martini chocolate is amazing. life is amazing. (after term test.)

square one

the whole morning was slept away.
i woke up with nobody at sight, just the sound of heavy pouring and thunder.
since when i got so stuck up with the thunder sound (>.<)
damn. i used to hear my grandma said, as you grow older, there are more things you worry.
maybe it's true.
now i got worried about thunder.

it's 12.50 pm, runch time.
having a warm soupy noodle is the best :D
off for meal!

. . .

2.14pm

so sleepy.
nobody's home yet.

. . .

3.02pm

great. i totally forgotten they are going to shut down electricity for one hour.
maybe i should sleep again.

. . .

6.27pm

woke up an hour ago. good thing light's on.
my mind was on paranormal activity the whole time. =S
they came home. housemates' here! phew.


a timelined friday.
having no school isn't a good thing after all.
thinking too much of irrelevant thoughts.
and it made me feel sick staying home all the time.

what is worse

Numbing the pain for a while will only make it worse when you finally feel it.

-Dumbledore-

(lovecanthurt.tumblr)

stuck between choices

FMLIA

today, i walked halfway through the usual soccer field path, enjoying the windy day and thinking of how nice the weather's gonna be. five seconds later, rain poured in so i have no choice but run throughout the rest of the path towards the sheltered bus stop. a drenched look all over; half-dried shampooed hair, water polkadot on grey top and jeans, sticky shoes feeling.

i crossed the overhead bridge and waited 518 bus for 30 minutes, my drenched hair has dried. i saw Prilly across the road waiting for her bus. and in the morning i rushed before her just to get to orchard earlier. FMLIA.

deception

starry dream

The stars lean down to kiss you, I lie awake and miss you.

disappointing

you know what's the disappointing part?

it's knowing that you never take me so seriously.

appreciate

bullet

creds: ~Risuchia

took me forever to take that bullet out of my heart

trying too hard

+++

"you are trying too hard" is all i need to hear and i will stop.

will you be there

my eyes are barely seeing anything in focus now. but i don't feel like sleeping. i'm so tired. my mind is bloody tired. can't concentrate. can't think. there is no excitement in looking forward to tomorrow.

now that i can finally connect to internet i felt so bored. =X

msn is untouchable.

anyway, moving in here is a little more exciting. but the first day sleeping alone in one small room was kinda dreadful and loneddd-ly. but not anymore :D i loove TransNationalStudies. the lesson the tutor. the house mates. everything seems so alright. hope it's gonna be fine all along.

you know when a girl is looking at you with eyes full of questions, she is wondering just how long you will be around.

what are we?

what i can feel

is just

a complete vagueness.

sleep tight

second week of the new semester. i can already imagine how hectic the next few months are gonna be. all FBI students do. well, at the very least, we should do something. showing some effort. even if it doesn't turn out that fantastic, at least we tried. less worry more happy. :D

i thought why can't we just give our best, rather than asking at our best? it applies to almost everything. work too. people too. such a simple thing to do. i would like to attempt. ignoring every possibly hurting thoughts. you know i know, we all know. maybe not everyone understands this post, it seems like this is directed more to myself.

anyway, school is always fun when you can laugh around and have a break from the suffocating mind. shall continue post some other time. i promise myself i am going to have breakfast tomorrow. and be feminine for Chen Huan, since it's her special request i can't help it, although i felt like cracking up sometimes with the way i have to carry myself with such dressy and demure look.

well, time for bed. sleep tight! :)

i just want to spend time with you. even if it is just some silence.

what is this

what is this what is this what is this.

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okay.

it feels much better.

seventeen - jalan terbaik

Seventeen – Jalan Terbaik

semua telah berakhir

tak mungkin bisa dipertahankan

hanya luka jika kita bersama

karna jalan ini memang berbeda

* semua yang terjadi tak akan kembali

jalan kita memang berbeda

namun hati ini tak ingin kembali

reff:

ku yakin kita akan bahagia

tanpa harus selalu bersama

tak perlu disesali

tak usah ditangisi

hanya luka jika kita bersama

karna jalan ini memang berbeda

repeat *

repeat reff

ku yakin ini jalan terbaik

walau kita tak lagi berdua

tak perlu disesali

tak usah ditangisi

walking away?

“How do you say good bye to someone you can’t imagine living without? I didn’t say good bye. I didn’t say anything. I just walked away.”

Elizabeth ~ My Blueberry Nights

fix the pieces

our life is changing in every possible way, everyday.

first day back again in Singapore after a long term break overseas is usually never comfortable.

my mind and body has somehow adapted this mindset over 5 years. i have not yet think of a way to change it. >.<

3 weeks have past.

sometimes you dread over it sometimes you felt it was too fast running past you.

this holiday has been meaningful that:

- Know there's no use dreading over a lost camera

- I can improve dialects, i haven't been talking so much about my life to grandma

- Read 5 cm by Dhonny Dirgantoro and made me think a lot over myself

- Wake up early, turn in early, i felt so healthy :D

- Officially turn 19. (wew, this is like the end of my 1- age) no more starting of 1 next year.

- Get as crazy as i want

- On holiday in such a big group

- I met a lot of people whom i thought will be awkward to strike a conversation with.

- Had no choice but to talk to them, and it's not that bad :)

- Some people who survived the earthquake. maybe not the house, but thank God they're fine. My condolences for some others who may not be so fortunate, may you be rest in peace.

come to think of that, we are just a small part of the world, you can be in Padang when earthquake stroke. or in Sulawesi when flood came. or in Jakarta when the terrorists were alive. nobody knows, our lives can end any moment. in any place. it may not be something you want. it may not when you want it to end. or who can be by your side at that time. so be someone helpful to others, it's the least we can do. :)

Mell loves you

peeps.

i'm leaving. waking up at this hour feels weird.

usually i just got to bed not long ago. :D

3 weeks time back in Singapore.

meanwhile, enjoy everyone else who has holidays!

and work hard for those who have exams!

Mell luphs u all!

stitched heart

stitched heart

♥ ♥ ♥

no Cs in the result slip doesn't mmean it's always good news.

how about starting up a personal goal. freak. freak. freak. that would be what i'm doing next sem.

we'll see.

4 more days.

bear with it.

just FOUR more days.

i want my laksa. not the local laksa here. i want the swimming pool. not the swimming complex here. i miss home-cooked food, again. =(

♥ Happy birthday Huanie ♥

down

there's only one word to describe these days: DOWN. =S

don't know why, everything surrounding me just seem so down.

people getting disappointed. and so do I.

i realised that the previous post doesn't make sense anymore.

inspired

holding on to the hurt only deprives you from having a beautiful relationship with someone else.

that was an inspiration.

thanks, i understand. :)

alcoholic scar

they say..

when you have a mole near your eyes you tend to shed tears.

is that true?

no, i don't think so.

♥ ♥ ♥

corinne may's song says, i woke up this morning feeling kind of new.

i say, i woke up this morning my stomach hurts so much!

there's a difference between depressed and drunk isn't it?

will time turn and tell?

wang seok-hyeon a.k.a lil' gi-d0ng ♥

cute show.

8 hours of k-box totally cracked up my voice. ladies' night was amazing.

13.59pm

finished exploring Heather McElhatton's Pretty Little Mistakes i borrowed from Asy. pretty addictive, 1 beginning with 150 endings. you get to choose what kind of life you want to lead.

read about 25 endings so far, i was kinda disappointed that most of it ended up too abruptly and naughty and unglam. only 5 of them ended beautiful with just ONE of them long-lived with peaceful ending. anyway, that's not what i wanna do in real life too because i don't want to stay with a woman till old age in a farmhouse with vast land and lots of reared animals. story book is still a story book. i want a future of my own.

you think waiting without doing anything would make any difference? well think again!

teh peng

the name is ice milk tea.

in Singapore it's teh peng. teh tarik.

in Indonesia they call it teh susu.

whatever the name is called.

whichever way it's made-

pulled up, shake, stir.

and no matter how it's being served-

hot, cold or warm.

the main ingredient is so simple-

tea, milk, sugar.

yet people love it.

it's popular. internationally-known.

you can find it almost everywhere.

from Asia to America.

from coffeeshop to 5 star buffet dining.

sometimes, you don't realise it,

but it's because you are that simple, you are loved. <3

♥ ♥ ♥

it's been kinda emotional. okay, maybe not the emotional that you and i know.

but i can't find a word to describe it. it's been up and down recently- fluctuating.

some other days have been quite stable and the next it's been fragile.

minds are just too hard to explain.

anyway, those pics were taken some time back in random moment and random place. lol.

at charlot's. our pasta cook is in the process of making bolognaise. nyummy!

next time shall try Fettuccini Alfredo. creamy lovely :D

taken on the way back home from swimming complex.

it should be somewhere near the grass field, along the corridor of hdb shops,

a spa treatment centre where the owner was having his pedicure

while his cute awesome Husky was tied to a big fat pillar waiting - patiently.

at the moment, i really really felt like kidnapping the Husky.

this is my bear. my bear hanging by the metal sticking out of the wall.

my poor bear. they abused my bear.

prilly' idea from hanging banana and now it's my bear's turn.

how cruel =S

my house. this was how the living room looked like on the first week of moving in.

or probably more than a week?

rattling on and on

daaaamn. i'm suffocating at home.

i don't usually stay at home like this, but here i was, and still am.

my whole morning was taken away by sleep, with meaningless and endless dream.

i woke up with 3 things in mind-bath, laundry and sorting out books.

okay, at least i did 2 out of 3, after 3 hours in front of computer screen with blank mind.

the more i think about changing, the more my head filled with plans to adjust back this chaotic body clock of mine. having first meal at dinner time and second meal at dawn will sure enough fulfill the fasting procedure already. and for me, that ain't a good news. but i'm still doing it.

i miss home. random, but i really miss home.

when i stepped out of the house, the view of families eating together in a round table foodcourt downstairs made me felt homesick so much.

time to give the wardrobe a good care.

how about a toga dress?

you are confusing

what are you thinking of?

dreadful night

my, like finally. FINALLY.

finally, reached home after cabbing from queenstown to harbourfront to send friz off.

she sure have lots of things to bring home (-.=)

and then 30 mins mrt journey with a body that has only 3 hours of sleep

with a face that craves for rest.

for a week, my body clock is totally under 180 degree transformation.

currently struggling between hunger and sleep.

was thinking of having toast set meal with soft-boiled egg.

but i think i can just fall asleep while eating. okay, i'm off to bed.

switched off.

post exam euphoria

my paper ended 2 days ago. and i havent got home ever since. out having fun in Charlot's. i'm getting more and more fond of this area. it's so peaceful and different. it feels so different from the other part of Singapore. if only i don't go to TP, i'd probably move to serangoon, yck and surrounding.

rain seems to stop already. time to go home.

see ya later. =D

the dark hours of silence

even with those pair of heavy eyes, my mind just refused to shut off.

love and time

Love and Time

Credit~mjagiellicz

Once upon a time, there was an island where all the feelings lived:

Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge, and all of the others, including Love.

One day it was announced to the feelings that the island would sink, so all constructed boats and left.

Except for Love.

Love was the only one who stayed.

Love wanted to hold out until the last possible moment.

When the island had almost sunk, Love decided to ask for help.

Richness was passing by Love in a grand boat. Love said,
"Richness, can you take me with you?"
Richness answered, "No, I can't. There is a lot of gold and silver in my boat. There is no place here for you."

Love decided to ask Vanity who was also passing by in a beautiful vessel. "Vanity, please help me!"
"I can't help you, Love. You are all wet and might damage my boat," Vanity answered.

Sadness was close by so Love asked, "Sadness, let me go with you."
"Oh . . . Love, I am so sad that I need to be by myself!"

Happiness passed by Love, too, but she was so happy that she did not even hear when Love called her.

Suddenly, there was a voice, "Come, Love, I will take you." It was an elder. So blessed and overjoyed, Love even forgot to ask the elder where they were going. When they arrived at dry land, the elder went her own way. Realizing how much was owed the elder,

Love asked Knowledge, another elder, "Who Helped me?"
"It was Time," Knowledge answered.
"Time?" asked Love. "But why did Time help me?"

Knowledge smiled with deep wisdom and answered, "Because only Time is capable of understanding how valuable Love is."

nightmare. grim. it will soon gone. in no time.

and one more paper to go :D

my padlock holder

Credit ~pinksocks

if you don't intend to padlock my heart, will you please return me the key?

love papaya milk

right now i feel like finding a place, finding a very very high place where i can have a picturesque view of the high rise buildings or the scenery of country side. even better Bora bora island. it's been stuffy these days. my head is stuffed up now too with all the BIS terms.

it will soon gonna be over and i wanna finish going through all of the notes by tomorrow. so that i'm feeling enlightened. :D

and papaya milk, i love!

corrine may is loved

total addiction to corinne may's angel in disguise. :D

tomorrow's goal: waking up early.

they say when there's a will, there'll be a way. haha. i'm totally believing it okay. i can do it.

weekends past faster than expected. now lab tests were over too.

wow, it's officially 3 more days left to exam and in a week's time holiday is fetching me already! it's calling my name now :D

spending night at clarke quay (thank you for persevering with me going one round for the kebab, ms char and mr jiankai >.<) honestly, i din't know it's gonna be that far either. and then char's house. i have a very fun time playing prank on someone with her msn! ahah.

jalan kayu prata curry is very nice and spicy :D and i wonder why lrt stations are so close to each other like you can walk from one station to another within 5 minutes, but you have to wait once every 15 minutes for the train to come. all in all, had a grrrrrreeeeeeeat time. ^^

owkay, shall be off to slumberland now. bonne nuit.

Take a look at the ordinary

Don't need to look at Paradise

You could be next to an angel in disguise <3

last but not least

Happy Birthday, Indonesia!

for the 64th times :)

pekanbaru i miss you

Pekanbaruuuuuu, i miss you!

i just felt like posting everything about my homesickness here.

i wanna go backkk! =S

go back to the place where my 9 years of life spent.

just a rough guess. haha.

OH i found it! *elated*

here!

HOME SWEET HOME (>.<)

Pekanbaru library - this is like one of the giant buildings that exists in the town

governor's headquarter - i feel sorry but this is how imbalance life can turn out to be.

credit: Afianto Tito

decolorised

decolourised heart is gone.

Falling in love is awfully simple
Falling out of love is simply awful.

but it's been colourful these days. <3

love your breeze

just by imagining what the upcoming week would be like is enough to make my head dizzy!

1. COTS presentation

2. CMSK brochure design

3. DERV powerpoint slides

amazingly the simple list of only 3 things is enough to turn my weekend off.

and i found out that yesterday's:

- french role play went very fine :D

- G.I. Joe is fantastic ( i wanna watch UP too!)

- salty popcorn is tasty, but still prefer if it's mixed with sweet ones.

- i missed the 12hr34mins56secs 07day 08month 09year yesterday because i was too busy fussing over my headache.

- my head pain was gone after that

- learnt that everything doesn't mean it's really everything.

just got the whole house swept clean, with nesty! fiuh.

and what a nice weather today. lovely breezy windy!

ok randomness ended here.

dancing atmosphere

to really live a life ain't that easy

in the midst of your love breeze

1.11 AM. i couldn't sleep. that's obvious. currently listening to 'Miss you like crazy'. the one that keeps playing in my head, over and over again. even when the song ain't playing. the lyrics just repeats in my ear.

ok, COTS test later. i mean, Monday afternoon. i wish i could just memorise all of them and jot them all down in the test paper. i hate memorising. just couldn't remember details like that. (>.<)

pril is depressing now. over her lost thumbdrive. my arm is painful, she pinched me.

so please please, if anyone found a thumbdrive especially with some doll face attached,

it may be hers.

please inform/return me. thanks!

she desperately in need of it. her project.

let's see. i can do plan A. scan through everything just literally read the notes. plan B. read, understand, and REMEMBER it hard. memorise if i need. can't take it, go back to plan A. set.

tomorrow morning, i shall study :D

you are not you who i used to know anymore.

it's sad.

but what use would it be

it's not like tape recorder.

it can't be rewind.

total stranger.

that's you indeed.

just amazed by how drastic things changed.

how life transformed you so much

it sucks.

the you i knew has died.

so do the me you used to.

i need eraser to rub you off my sight.

off my life.

off my head.

disappear please disappear.

live update

12:14 PM

let's see. "lotte" is staring at me from my bed right now. i feel so nervous. not because of the stare, but i can't see the keyboard properly it's so dark.

ok, the light is on now. the other two people in my room is discussing psychology where a just-wake-up woman who admits that part of her name is a theme park in Japan is interviewing a just woke-up and insist an "i-just-bathed" statement (ok, in this case she already did) for her psychology test tomorrow.

french lesson this morning is a 10 mins consultation about our role play. breaking record. i woke up one and a half hours earlier to type the dialogue out from our written script.

felt completely good today after seeing people getting lost control last night in Ice-Cold. haha. nice feeling anyway. it's good to see some other crazy side of your classmates :D apart from the fact that one or two of them may turn a bit violent.

13:33 PM

IT free access lab is seriously more peaceful and cozy compared to business' school. can't expect the noise to die down. not even a minute. it's totally not-a-me-place. if nata can reply me faster if she's available, i am so gonna be outta here as fast as possible.

pril's doing project with her group member. still waiting. waiting still. nata please call me soon. like now?

14:11 PM

i was thinking of a live update journal. but it would be too long and draggy to read. never mind. some random thoughts. getting ready for lunch. more update later.

monday blue

Love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind..
maybe that's why winged Cupid is painted blind.

it's not like there's of any occasion. of love. or anything. in fact more and more people are getting sick nowadays. please take care of yourselves. get well soon people :)

i believe we all have our own views on life.
and maybe this is just me.
when you keep thinking over how contradicting a mind can be, it gets rather confusing at times. there are some thoughts in you that you couldn't help thinking over and over again because it makes no sense to you. or it makes you sick and hurt. or it brings back some unpleasant playback in the back of your head. shitty.

anyway, Monday blue is over. waking up at 8.50am for 9 morning class is a total mess. it doesn't feel good at all. so no matter how insomniac i get tonight, im not gonna turn on my laptop again. i will be sleeping before 1! yeah, made up my mind. (>.<)

Missing someone gets easier everyday
because even though you are one day further
from the last time you saw them,
you are one day closer to the next time you will.

i was thinking of changing the skin and get some your.juliet blogskin :D
maybe not now. i changed my mind. shall wait for the next Valentine, let's wait for the anniversary. i still can't take my eyes off the skin. too many memories.

freeze the time

Je pense tout le temps à toi
i couldn't concentrate on anything else. it's way too distracting.

Caught The Haunting that ended at midnight. If only i wasn't late to catch 7.45 movie slot and made the rest wait (>.<) i wouldn't be scaring myself on the way home and on the way to my dream. I literally jumped when i heard the slightest sound in the dawn. But no regret watching it!
oh maybe a lil' bit regretful, seventh month is coming.

The hamsters need a proper home. I want to hold and touch them again, it reminds me of the hamster couple friz used to have. man, i used to love them so much! i miss them. hope nata's hamz this time will be well taken care of.

lovely day

Today's weather is so lovely!
"Accidentally engaged-ing" in the midst of the breeze..

memorably remembered!

this explains the torrential and darkness this morning.
i was literally dragging myself out of bed for the morning class! argh~ life couldn't be worst that being deprived from sleep =S

thoughts tearing out

today,
i found out that everything in this world is never enduring. and i believe in it.
nor happiness neither pain. it was too devastating, too suffering, too suffocating to find out that despite every effort you put in to brighten someone's day, you can't do it unless the person changes his/her mindset.

today,
i found out too, that despite how overwhelming your emotion is, whether it is good or bad, you should learn to control it. in front of others, especially in front of yourselves.

today,
i realized that there is absolutely nothing can turn out as perfect as what you dream of. life always has its own way of making things turn out like what it is to be, so why wait till it all turns so perfect? grab the chance and go with the flow of life, cuz never will it come.

today,
right this moment i see a lot of despicable eyes that can't satisfy its thirst of temptation. human's mind indeed freaks me out.

last n i g h t,
i dreamed of something similar. that makes me jump out. it scared the hell out of me. not ghost. not murderer or serial killer. not monster. just human.

if i reconsider it once again, Edmond, i don't want to have super memory like that woman too. i can't even find my happiness yet without that special abilities.

shoutheart

at times, i really wonder why people around you are drawn to you, like they have expected something that makes them feel so good from you, when you feel like you have nothing much to offer.
seriously, it makes me feel so helpless. it's frustrating.
i don't know why but i am definitely not that fantastic (>.<)

the lady in love

today is probably the healthiest day I led for the last few weeks.
here's some list out to show off (hah! i bet it's for today only >.<)

1. wake up 8 int the morning. (with more than 3 alarms set up and snoozings)
2. having breakfast. i repeat, breakfast, not brunch!
3. swim (wow, i actually do pay money to swim after i move out from a place where
4. plus night walk from safra to home! (although it's because we have no choice after missing the last bus 8)

still still, im having a good day i feel so good! :D i love this morning's french class too.

it's gonna be a better one tomorrow.. sleep well..^^

if you found a key to this heart, please think twice to unlock it, don't break it apart

you'll see what you need to see

what has got into me these days, attending people's lecture. goodness, i should stop doing this because i regretted attending pril's 2 hours OB lecture. i almost dozed off for the last one hour. man, should just go home and get some sleep.

psychology makes me imagine no further how scary human personality can be. sometimes it hurts me not realizing what some people truly think and feel, at the same time i am scared myself cuz after i get to know what their mind is like, i don't feel like getting any deeper anymore. indeed complicated.

do traumas change people that much?
how can one pretend something that affects his/her life so much never happened at all, and keep it to themselves, appearing to be all strong and steadfast when they are not?

gawd, i have no idea at all. the lesson, it doesn't seem to give me guidance~

well well well,
enough of that, it's gonna boil my blood even more.

i really feel like getting some workout recently. with people around me battling with their sickness, i don't wanna be sick, because there is no point being sick and staying, rotting at home with only TV and computer as accompanion. that would freaking bored me out..

after today's long day, 2 hours of french class tomorrow sounds exciting and short! haha.. i am looking forward to enjoy the weekend. C'est bon!

"Nobody on his death bed wished he'd spent more time at the office."

do something to your life if you want it to be the best thing you lived. ^^

thinking of you

comparisons are easily done
once you've had a taste of perfection
like an apple hanging from a tree
i picked the ripest one, i still got the seed

you said move on, where do i go?
i guess second best is all i will know

thinking of you..
katy perry

dilemma-nised

apologize for the late post-up. i know it's been ages (>.<)

show premier begins!

the ultimate way of taking breakfast..haha..


nez-in-action

another great idea from our dear housemate for locating a home phone. excellent, all fingers up for u, especially the middle one! LOL

tied up with all kinds of bills.

i guess i need someone to talk to.
more than you do.