sleep tight

second week of the new semester. i can already imagine how hectic the next few months are gonna be. all FBI students do. well, at the very least, we should do something. showing some effort. even if it doesn't turn out that fantastic, at least we tried. less worry more happy. :D

i thought why can't we just give our best, rather than asking at our best? it applies to almost everything. work too. people too. such a simple thing to do. i would like to attempt. ignoring every possibly hurting thoughts. you know i know, we all know. maybe not everyone understands this post, it seems like this is directed more to myself.

anyway, school is always fun when you can laugh around and have a break from the suffocating mind. shall continue post some other time. i promise myself i am going to have breakfast tomorrow. and be feminine for Chen Huan, since it's her special request i can't help it, although i felt like cracking up sometimes with the way i have to carry myself with such dressy and demure look.

well, time for bed. sleep tight! :)

i just want to spend time with you. even if it is just some silence.

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okay.

it feels much better.

seventeen - jalan terbaik

Seventeen – Jalan Terbaik

semua telah berakhir

tak mungkin bisa dipertahankan

hanya luka jika kita bersama

karna jalan ini memang berbeda

* semua yang terjadi tak akan kembali

jalan kita memang berbeda

namun hati ini tak ingin kembali

reff:

ku yakin kita akan bahagia

tanpa harus selalu bersama

tak perlu disesali

tak usah ditangisi

hanya luka jika kita bersama

karna jalan ini memang berbeda

repeat *

repeat reff

ku yakin ini jalan terbaik

walau kita tak lagi berdua

tak perlu disesali

tak usah ditangisi

walking away?

“How do you say good bye to someone you can’t imagine living without? I didn’t say good bye. I didn’t say anything. I just walked away.”

Elizabeth ~ My Blueberry Nights

fix the pieces

our life is changing in every possible way, everyday.

first day back again in Singapore after a long term break overseas is usually never comfortable.

my mind and body has somehow adapted this mindset over 5 years. i have not yet think of a way to change it. >.<

3 weeks have past.

sometimes you dread over it sometimes you felt it was too fast running past you.

this holiday has been meaningful that:

- Know there's no use dreading over a lost camera

- I can improve dialects, i haven't been talking so much about my life to grandma

- Read 5 cm by Dhonny Dirgantoro and made me think a lot over myself

- Wake up early, turn in early, i felt so healthy :D

- Officially turn 19. (wew, this is like the end of my 1- age) no more starting of 1 next year.

- Get as crazy as i want

- On holiday in such a big group

- I met a lot of people whom i thought will be awkward to strike a conversation with.

- Had no choice but to talk to them, and it's not that bad :)

- Some people who survived the earthquake. maybe not the house, but thank God they're fine. My condolences for some others who may not be so fortunate, may you be rest in peace.

come to think of that, we are just a small part of the world, you can be in Padang when earthquake stroke. or in Sulawesi when flood came. or in Jakarta when the terrorists were alive. nobody knows, our lives can end any moment. in any place. it may not be something you want. it may not when you want it to end. or who can be by your side at that time. so be someone helpful to others, it's the least we can do. :)