mell poem :: futur3

future..
what do ya think iz a future?

a time when u don't have to eat rice from field,
when u juz swallow a capsule to satisfy ur need..
a time when u don't have to pay 4 travel feez,
bcoz all u need to do is flying without wingz..

thatz all ppL think about..

it'z a world of alienz 4 me..
when ppL miz the moment of sharing with loved ones..
bcoz money iz da only one filled up their mind..
more and more oblivious to their surroundings..

thiz feeLing iz so SCary..



...mell_

smile..

show ur smile..
bcoz when u smile,
u fill up emptiness,
u peace up a world,
stand out as justice..
and make u da happiest person in da world..

even if ur mind iz in da mess,
ur heart iz in pain,
ur love life iz in broken state..
u'll neva Hurt to smile..
becoz it shines ur purest heart..
ur slightest action, makes a big impact on people...

take every chance of ur liFe.. with ur dear sMile..



`mell_^^

so where ar ya now

bosannnnn ..
shouLd we write a poem? =p


g00d nite to my worLd..
what a cold and empty night..
why u keep walkin in n out of my life..
leaving ur footprints here.,
but it's blown by the wind..
this feeling keep fading away..
but suddenly u come and left a deeper print in thiz heart..
what should i do..
tell me..
u left me with confuse..
thiz heart has got n0 gut to lie..
good night my loveLy world..



`mell_^^
(signin off)

rainy dayzz

phew.. why iz it keep raining these days., here and there.. it's juz water and water.. dark, gloomy faces evrywhere u g0.. mrt, mallz, interchange, bus.. unbearAble..

few dayz ag0 with t0uch to lavender., enjoy her speciaL 'menu' there.. can say it's super HOT.. the chilli even covered moz of da fo0d., can't even see through.. neway.. eating chili when rainin catz en dogs iz pretty enj0yable..! we get changed to PE t-shirt after our whole uniform soaked in the rain.. hoh0.. and that t0uch still take a chance to snap on tha stupid pose.. lol..

capee'

weleh., first dae of sch.. l0vely principal iz givin uz her speciaL speech of da dAe! omg.. i felt asleep.. luckily nt dropped to floor.. she'z jux repeating the same speech over en over again..

my mind still on h0lidae.. uhh.. why can't i fast forward tym.. i wanna finish O lvl asap.. this head is on mess.. n0t becoz of 0 lvl.. it'z just refuse to listen to me., out o c0ntrol for me.. these dayz feel lyk my body iz no longer mine.. doh pusinq.. nggq tao mikirin apa..

mpe sniy dloe.. gw m0 makann.. c ya..


`mell_^^

wuiz.. finally.!

akhirnya mann., my homew0rk finished.. ma0 mati rasanya ngerjain mathx..+ chemiztry (o.0).. feel lyk killing da t'cerz.. =p.. givin pilez of work to do..

comez to the end of dayz here., in lovely sweetz home.. ^^ holidae time iz always so short.. will be missing the freakin hot weather., and da traffiC jamm.. da street food., cheap coffeeshop.. x-schmatez., sch0ol., home., old bed., thinking 0f tiz., don't feeL lyk goin back.. hha..

unluckily., fact iz nt tat nice.. gotta go back.. yeah.. tatz all.. ^^

` mell_

here i am..

finally.. after weekz n weeks came back.. can update my blog.. haha.. gt a chance changing new skin.. s0me feedback that last skin nt s0 nice.. so decided to listen to the sumw0ne.. ^^.. and found a new one.. so how 'bout tiz? jux take few minz tym to find this skull.. hhe..

how have i been doin here.. uhm., so many thingz happened at home.. with frenz.. relatives.. and all that.. lookz lyk it's too heavy to describe in detaiL.. looks lyk almost hv most of my time meeting old frenz.. and new one too.. visiting most of family members.. nostalgia moment is over.. now that i return to the same b0ring time.. ever..

owh.. left one thing.. tatz forg0tten.. en that'z (i'm sure no 0ne iz int'rezted to hear tiz, m3 included..).. thatz.. (()-.-) h0mework.. ughh i hate tiz.. felt that the more i do thiz, the more work it becomez..

now that ther'z nothin left for me to do.. so how.? shud return to face our hmwOrk uh.. life's lyk tiz.. we've GT no wae to avoid reality.. not only for thiz work.. for life, money, en love.? maybe.. must face it.. gotta be str0ng..

anywae.. not doing hmwork doesn't mean tat nothing learnt during tiz holidae.. so far.. i've learnt bout life.. about love.. love that grows from friendship.. from care and sacrifices towards each other.. from goin through bitterness together..
love is nt always refering to one.. u love each person differently..
but till now.. it'z confusin.. where actually love iz..

i see love shines..
from da snowy clouds..
that stands miles away..

from da twinkling stars..
in da gloomy night..

love.. is there any L.O.V.E words..
tell me where it iz..

this is one nice ways of killing b0redom.. ^^

cinta emank kgaq ada loGika..

ice skatin kmaren.. duh irene.. pake ngebut sgala ngeskate e.. =p untung nech kali ni kga jatuh.. thanx neh yg dah bantuin.. ^^

cinta, tak ada logika..

karna aku tak tahu
kau sudah ada yang punya
atau bisikan cinta ku tahu engkau berdusta

namun ku tak mau mengerti
selama kau masih bersamaku
karna ku suka, ku butuh cinta yang pernah hilang dariku

cinta ini kadang tak ada logika
bersih smua hasrat dalam hati
ku hanya ingin dapat memiliki
dirimu hanya untuk sesaat

karna aku tak tahu
kau sudah ada yang punya
karna kau telah bisikkan cintamu padaku
ku tahu kau telah berdusta


cinta mank kadang2 ngga ada logika nya..
bcoz love only needs what ur feeling SHOUTs to ur mind..

(haha.. maklumin.. kurang kerjaan eke.. ^.*)

miz hOme...

waduh dunia.... makin sepi aja.. satu satu pd pulang smua.. jd tambah kgn rumah.. idup di sini ngga tao mo ngapaenn.. idup idup.. terlalu sepi ssh, keramean apalage.. T.T huahh..

cepetlah tgL 19 tiba.. pulang daku mo PulAngggkkk.. kgaq sabar mo ngliat Pekanbaru.. ^^.. moga2 aja ngga terlalu berubah.. lbih kgn ama suasana yg damai dn tenteram di sono..

home sweet home.. i'm comin..




=== mell ===
love ain't a matter of logic.. it's a matter of feeling..

love at the first sight

the first moment i saw you..
i believed this love at first sight..
that once i have despised all my life..

your beautiful eyes traps my attention..
your loving smile makes me almost faint..
your laugh melts my heart..
everything you do to me,
my mind is bursting out becoz of you..

now that my love lays on you..
bit by bits you shed lies..
leaving wounds on this heart..
your betrayal changed to a blade..
a blade that's been sharpened..
slowly and sure,
this blade penetrates my skin..
deep into my heart..

you poisoned my mind..
Love at the first sight..
it's all your cruel story..
once again you made me believe..
this meaningless love at the first sight,
you prove it to me..

Beeby iz my Name..

mmm... PRIlll... baca novel bagi2 dunk.. boseNNN.. what can i Do..? watchin her reading bOok.. ugh.. =.=.. sad..

Expected scene 4 tmrw.. last dae o' scHool . . .


coz ysterdae slept at around 3 a.m.. after schoOl continue my dreaming tym.. lolz.. fter wake up . . .


as a result for super long resting time..


after that.. dunnoe wad to do.. T.T



haven't set aside time to clear up such messy table.. dugh.. kaya' kapaL pecah dah..


after whole BorinGGGGG afternoon, decided to read the novel..
uh,, can't even concentRate.. -.-"" smthin disturbing my minD...


trying to peep on Her wallet's.. ehm... ehm.. ^^"" ati ati loe yach prilloy..


oy.. makan bagi bagi lah nekk.. tega nya.. teganya ...


that's aLL 4 todae'zzz...
take care all of u..

oyah.. Heppy B'dae to Novia..
Hppie BelateD birthDAe to Lix..!! wish u all da bez.. ^^ dun always fight with me darlin..

keppel..

yesterdae, went to keppel club.. bowling centre.. watching ppl karaoke..
and celebrating asyiah's birthday.. Happy B'Dae to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday happy birthday.. Happy birthday Asyiah..

hello my Life!!

what a nice day without school.. XD.. it's not skipping sch anyway.. i got out of bed around 3 p.m.. can't blame me for not attending lessons.. hmm.. looks like it will be a long weekend holiday for me.. haha.. terrific..

today.. another day of my life.. going to far east.. window shopping.. actually intend to buy some t-shirts, unluckily can't buy anything.. lol.. can't afford to buy, so expensive!!

some photos taken when waiting my friends shopping en all that..

personality ==

recently doing some personality tests.. this is one of them.. offered by smone..
it'z juz a test.. although about 75% true.. lol..

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.

In action!

ini nih klo orng gila dah kalap.. haha.. FUN abis di east coast.. sehrian narsis2an.. sana sini poto.. u guys r cool.. lolx!

VivoCity with nata d.s.s (dan sister sister)

October 27th.. Vivocity with nata en sistaz

east coast.. movie.. en craziewoman

suggest u this horror indonesian movie.. made me heart attack.. -.-"" the ghosts came out unexpectedly man.. but i agree the storyline quite nice.. =p
`Ada Hantu di Sekolah..`

last night watched that with my housemates.. haha.. we slept at 4am.. burn midnite oil 4 this kind o thing is better than studying.. -.-""

today felt so sleepy and lazy to go out.. they all go shopping, only me en nesty stayed at home..

these 2 days quite adventurous.. yesterday thought will be victim of abuse haha.. caught by this "madwoman".. we managed to escaped from the madness.. actually quite fun..

these r pics taken few days ago @east coast.. just learn roller bladin`.. lol..

Differences Between Love and Like

In front of the person you love, your heart beats faster
But in front of the person you like, you get happy.

In front of the person you love, winter seems like spring
But in front of the person you like, winter is just a beautiful winter

If you look into the eyes of the one you love you blush
But if you look into the eyes of the one you like you smile

In front of the person you love you can't say everything on your mind
But in front of the person you like, you can.

In front of the person you love, you tend to get shy
But in front of the person you like, you can show your ownself.

The person you love comes into your mind every two minutes.
you can't look straight intro the eyes of the one you love
But you can always smile into the eyes of the one you like.'

When the one you love is crying you cry with them
But when the one you like is crying, you cheer them up.

The feeling of love starts form the eye & heart
and the feeling of like starts from the ear & the feeling.

So if you stop liking a person you used to like
All you need to do is to cover your ears n stop thinking,
But if you try to close your eyes

Love turns into a drop of tear and remains in your heart forever.

good dae-wannabe

yo.. here's da 1st post.. what a beautiful morning, wake around 12 noon, coz disturbed by some renovation upstairs.. wreck up my wonderful sleeping time.. -.-")) ugh..

D.O.A.. nicely packed action movie ! the gurls are hot =p dun miz da movie!! before that, went to sushi restaurant last min before movie starts.. we go in ten mins late.. missed the beginnings action.. T.T..

today is nt quite a day for my housemates.. i really admire nesty's laptop.. although accidentally smashed hard to the floor. can still survived.. tough.. lol.. (nez, ur com wanna break up wif u..) vero, you r so pro.. still practice flying frm double-decker bedroom.. luckily neva injured..

actually first post not that easy to produce.. after thinking whole lot of what happened to day.. finally managed to publish post the next morning.. i think need to practice more =p..

end here.. ^^
~mell~
saturdae oct 28th'06