
this is what happens when you got too HIGH~
ru guo you yi tian by fish leong
i have successfully persuaded a few people to read Rich Dad Poor Dad! hah! trust me, it will be totally useful whether or not you have any financial knowledge. 'There is a difference between poor and broke. Broke is temporary, poor is eternal.' Now i find some interest of drowning myself in self-motivational books.
ah~ i can imagine how people fall in love, how they keep re-playing those sweet moments they had with their crush, and how crazy their response and how insane they become, ~.~ haha. actually not only i imagine that, i saw them with my own eyes! =D
are we becoming more ignorant too as we grow up? i always wonder why are adults so cold-hearted and even though their heart ache so much, they just can't afford to be honest towards their own feelings? what's with this hide-and seek games? don't they find it frustrating, don't they always complain that they have had enough stress?
Friday, November 28, 2008
如果有一天
Thursday, November 27, 2008
my first clamshell!
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
you can always look at the sunlight
presentation, done!
although it doesn't go as smoothly as we expected, i was nervous to the core,i thought i could do better next time ^_^
anyway yeah CORE is done!!! done!! done!
dinner at lavender food square. jk and huany recommendation. hmm, yummy. would like to grab some bites there again! =)
Monday, November 24, 2008
de toi a moi
the french lyric just melts in my heart :D
(Jesse Mcartney-just so you know).
this quiz was taken when i was in a fallen-asleep state in QUAN lab. totally accurate.
what's your inner desire?
You want to understand yourself.
There are so many things going on in your mind. You wonder what all of them mean, what you really want, who you really want to be with, etc. You question yourself often. You want to know who you really are, and you want to define yourself. This is a personal journey that most people experience. Keep doing what makes you feel good and what induces the least amount of anxiety and questions. Express yourself in every way possible. You don't need to define yourself, you just need to answer some important questions. It will all come in time.
Sunday, November 23, 2008
i should have trusted my heart
call me fool
call me stupid
i have had enough. i am exhausted, for real. all i want is just a simple story. sincere, long-lasting, and honest.maybe we are not meant to be this way. i knew it will happen, i just refused to bring myself to believe it. and thanks to all this stupid hope on you. it's so over. i am wishing u all the best.
Saturday, November 22, 2008
the illusionist.
it was totally soothing and cooling, and freezing of course, we got in the pool around 8pm. i guess that explains why. yah, can say it's my fault, i slept for almost two hours, promised myself to wake up an hour earlier. but luckily, the gonna-rain-sky understoodED me so much. it stopped. xP
after some warming up and lil swims here and there (that's how it's gonna be when you don't practice them for months! ~.~) we went to the smaller pool intend to enjoy some jacuzzi as a form of self-indulgement for the hectic week.
the funny part is when we looked around to find the jacuzzi switch and ended up like fools when the security guard approached us and told us that the switches are near the security post and vending machine. i was totally dumbfounded. how can the switch be so far from the jacuzzi itself? #$%^&!*
so my itchy hands ended up pressing on all the 3 different switches. i was curious what the SPA and bubble switch will be. and so i bet i looked like a 5 year old kid playing in a watery bubbly pool. LOL. and i just realised there's a sauna down here. haha.
there are times that we hoped we didn't say out those things we did. and wished that we had said those things we wanna say. it is just so weird that we can't even control our mind. i guess that is how misunderstanding created. i want you all to know. i love all of you, those who cares for me and those who sacrificed, assisted me and taught me things in life. even though you know, that i can't express myself very well, i adore you. =)
it's not of any occasion, but i want to live my life as if tomorrow will never
come. chances are not coming twice. i don't wanna have regret
anymore.
ohh, i am thinking of changing the blogskin again. yeah, something that looks bigger. =S
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
on fire
RP is amazing. the hall, the court, the cultural block. and the hostel. i wish i could stay somewhere like that, sadly TP doesn't have place to accomodate me.
and
yesterday.
it was exhausting out for the whole morning for attending lectures and classes and spent the whole evening till midnight moving stuff from Choa Chu Kang to Woodlands. can you imagine if you came from Tampines all the way? W.O.W it's a wow. hah. anyway, i was glad and all satisfied. despite my aching all over the body, it's been a fun and helpful day. and im waiting for your treat. well i didn't ask for it, u offered it. =)
looking forward to reserve Rich Dad Poor Dad since Nez finished reading them. I hope nobody is on the waiting list. the book seems to be popular. or maybe i should just get the queue online. oh~~~ forget it. the tp website is taking forever to load. especially in my lappy. that should explain why i am not updated with TP happenings. lol.
today.
yeas. i finished my DBIS tutorial. although happened to be referencing from some reliable source, i was done. the first time i ever felt so happy and relieved i completed a class exercise. FYI, been spending 2 straight hours in prill's room for that. of course with the extras, camwhoring and chitchatting blablabla as always.
it should be time to wake up now. projects are starting. assignments. projects. assignments. presentations. reports. term tests. i'll be hearing a lot of those words from now on till the end of semester. better prepare mentally physically and sociologily. =D
Saturday, November 15, 2008
yesterday once more
i've been looking forward to watch the Twilight! =P
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
desperation in pursuing happiness
where was she? the girl i used to know.
that once knows no fear. shares her thoughts, her smile and laughter, her cheer, her brave?
the spirit, the passion, the love, they are all turning into ashes.
why can't i just get over it? it is over. over.
was i meant to be alone? where are they, who truly cares for me?
they don't understand me. even them, the one i truly love and care,
the closest amongst all the things i have in the world. what else?
Monday, November 10, 2008
ideology kills
refer to article for details.
finally it's being executed, after 5 years. killing people isn't something you can relate with religion and be proud of it, i suppose. ah, i wonder what are these guys thinking.
i can't believe myself in revising the first test of the semester. wow. is it just my dream? haha! but i did it. yeah, i hope my comskill report wasn't that bad. i have a lot of problems with sentence structure. at least i am proud of the effort i've put in. =)
and.... i am kinda curious with my oreo biscuits stock now. i got an email on the threat oreo brings. that-that-faggot thingy inside the biscuit. ok i shall not talk about it. you know i know it's disgusting enough. argh. i feel like throwing the big piles of oreos from my food container!! thanks to the email.
my hands are itchy now i feel like doing something with my hair.haha.
btw photos during asy birthday are up in nez's blog. im not gonna upload the exact same thing then. enjoy the last minutes of your weekend everybody!
Saturday, November 08, 2008
homey weekend
it's a weekend. a homey weekend. i have spent my morning and noon in wonderland. it was kinda dreadful today. i felt that i was so deprived of sleep when i have too much rest. and i dreaded even more with the fact that i am staying at home, in my tiny room for the whole day! so this is my result of dreadfulness.

a penguin! yeahl! isn't Yaputa cute? She's my cute accompanion. cup cup*
it's been 2 years
1. a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep attraction
2. unconditional affection with no limits
3. nature's way of tricking people into reproducing
4. to give evrything you have and not eexpect anything in return
5. something that, when returned, will make you the happiest person in the world, and make nothing else matter
6. if you find it, don't let it go
7. if it hurts you, you know what to do.
dia bukan milikku.
hapus aku.
2 years. and that's all it takes.
it keeps fading. so do you.
Friday, November 07, 2008
catch a cold
well, every cloud has it's silver lining. my appetite has not been reduced any form =) i am feeling hungry now. today nesty and me are doing spring cleaning for our room, washed all clothes and changed bedsheet. it seemed like my sickness was turned to an unusual hardwork. the room looks much better, at least for this moment.
it's a lazy day, i woke up by phone call around 1pm. sleep again till 2 plus. yeah, i skipped all 3 straight hours of accounting tutorial and lecture. wew i am having a long weekend! (note: see my reasons right in the first line. that's right. i have an excuse :P) and still loads and tonnes of work to do. research and tutorials and everything. starting of h-e-l-l* the undying heaty path begins. ~.~
Tuesday, November 04, 2008
the day you went away
i bet missing the last train of the day piss you off sometimes. i was in changi airport when nesty and me ran down through the long escalator. why does it have to be so long. haiz. it was about 11pm. luckily, we still found the busy buses loading and unloading passengers. i was half asleep when i got on the bus, and the thoughts of dreams was much stronger than my worries that i'd miss the bus stop, telling myself i could wake up on time to change to another bus. and, what you expect least it usually happened. and not for good. we alighted at tampines regional library, for God's sake second stop from the last.
anyway, the night at changi wasn't that bad except for the sardines in bottle atmosphere and the freaking crazy kpop fans. having a star smiling at us and waving excitedly in the handycam was considered a good one, judging for the vigorous move of the fans. never had such a suffocating experience in arrival hall of an airport. i wouldn't wanna go for this kind of thing for the second time. hell no. despite all, i could at least indulge myself in beef meatball spaghetti-hot vanilla meal and a polaroid wallet-sized pic of myself taken by nesty. and i admitted her snap was better than me. :P i just forgot how to position my eyes in the lens after using digital camera all this time.LOL.
today:
nothing special. i saw the swimmin pool as usual. two or three figures with their breaststroke pose, with a man doing push up by the pool. it's gettin dark. the lights are up, yellowish colour in a romantic kind of way.
something interesting. some tips from Phil Vickery:
"Put a pint of milk in a polythene bag with 2 tablespoon of vanilla essence and 2 tablespoon of sugar, seal it well and put that bag in another polythene bag containing ice cubes and 4 tablespoon of salt. Then shake it up for a few minutes and the mil mixture will turn into a soft ice-cream."
a must try! haha.
Sunday, November 02, 2008
a bigger picture
is it just my life or is it just my gen that resemble him making me now so in love with what i am reading now? i don't know, i just love it.
one book i recommend you, nesty's been borrowing it from library. Rich Dad, Poor Dad by Robert T. Kiyosaki. 5 star!
Monday, October 27, 2008
boredom attack
Friday, October 24, 2008
week of turmoil and peace
and this is just not so good. my stomach keeps showing signs of gastric and severe pain. although it's the last place i wanna go, i should go to consult a doctor some other time if it is acting out again.
having accounting class for 3 straight hours in such early morning. i got myself lost in the sea of business people to find the tutorial class in panic having thoughts of late and caught in unfamiliar atmosphere. and the fact that the tutor himself was not punctual somehow made me relieved. it was kinda messy when we formed project group, i just got to know my members in 5 mins time when the tutor announced us to get to talk and "mix around in 5 mins". -.= it was kind of weird though. there are few classmates named yiling, yingxing, yiting. if i'm not wrong. tried my best not to get confused between three of them.
went out with huany and one of her church friends Shan shan (i hope it's the correct spelling :D) after few hours of messing around in school with c207.
shopped till drop, laughed till my leg turned jelly..that was fun and totally entertaining, thanks guys! and the Marvelous cream French sweet parfait was soooooo nyummy baby! hahah..
i ♥ dark chocolate ^_*
Sunday, October 12, 2008
back to routine
so, here i am. in my bedroom in lovely clearwater, after the whole day of familiarising myself again, hanging out and chatting around, and window shopping.
a week to school reopening. hope i get to spend some nice time for these few holy-days.
Thursday, October 09, 2008
life's little circuit
Life changes every minute of every day. You lose friends & you gain friends. You realize your friend wasn’t ever really your friend, & that person you used to hate can make a really good friend. You look for love. You find love & you lose love. You realize all along that you’ve been loved. You laugh, you cry. You laugh so hard that you cry. You do this, you do that. You really wish you hadn’t done that. You then learn from that & are glad that you did. You have your ups & you have your downs. You see good movies & you see bad movies. You wonder if your life is just one big movie.You look at others & wish you were them. You then realize who they are & are glad that you’re you.You love life and you hate life. In the end, you just find yourself being happy to be living life, no matter what is thrown at you.
Monday, October 06, 2008
can't do anything
credited:photobucket.
When life just don't go the way you want it to be. Don't let it disappoint yourself. Don't go against it, for you have no way going against nature.Go with the flow.
Forgive and forget. :)
Friday, October 03, 2008
third week home
Battista once said, "The greatest weakness of most humans is their hesitancy to tell others how much they love them, while they are alive. i don't wanna have regrets anymore.
had night snacks with dad mom and bro last night as usual in VID (expected, sista requested..) chicken fried in some special seasoning (idk what it is called) for flavouring fruit i guess. it's utterly delicious. =) and my dad offered me and bro heineken. haha! that's even more delicious.
dad: "the fried chicken will go best with this beer, try it."
mom: "they are looking at us. what do they think of us when the father teach his children how to drink beer." (sounds utterly worried)
dad: "what's wrong with that? don't care so much about it, you want some?"
and then they continued on and on. haha. that was cute.
anyway, there's so much things to learn still. :)
我知道你我都没有错
只是忘了怎么退后
信誓旦旦给了承诺
却被时间扑了空
我知道我们都没有错
只是放手会比较好过
最美的爱情回忆里待續
if only i could transform those memories of us.
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
they hurt you like nobody's business
Some people move our souls to dance.
They awaken us to new understanding with the passing whisper of their wisdom.
Some people make the sky more beautiful to gaze upon.
They stay in our lives for awhile, leave footprints on our hearts, and we are never ever the same.
Some people just think that they can change your world. They did, and you simply love the way they treat you. And then they turned your world upside down and change their heart as easy as changing their appetite. and here you are. getting sick and angry and upset and you are still unable to get over it. you can't bring yourself to hate them. you feel so weak and hopeless. you are greatly, deeply disappointed, and they know nothing about it. nothing. they will think you are the one who change, because you don't treat them the way you used to. they made it as excuses to avoid you. and they happily move on with their life. they know absolutely nothing about your pain.
There's a lot more things to learn than just passions and love. I need a certainty. it's utterly hurtful. i can no longer read what you are thinking.
Sunday, September 28, 2008
pictures of you
Pictures of me
Hung up on your wall for the world to see
There is a title we can't win
thank you mom and dad
Friday, September 26, 2008
the turning point
ironic~ today's the first time i woke up as early as 9am for the whole week. perfect 9 0'clock. that makes the letter of the day. 'L'.
as unbelievable as it is, nearly half of the Americans believe in existence of guardian angels. i thought Hollywood supernatural shows are merely entertaining and not as a guide for their personal life.
tonight.
Ace hardware, here we go. :D

late postings:
(1) love u Mom! (2) congrats for the 2nd place, sistaa! XD
always be my baby
timeWe were as one babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine
Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die
You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
I ain't gonna cry no
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave girl
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably you'll be back again
Cause ya know in your heart babe
Our love will never end no
I know that you'll be back girl
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder
I know that, you'll be right back, babe
baby believe me it's only a matter of
always be my baby-david cook
Thursday, September 25, 2008
nighmare again
i found few altenatives ultimately, to not let myself bored to death here. will be having dentist appointment and some exercises. jess, we couldn't afford to cancel our hang out this time round! :X
and tomorrow is the opening of F1 i believe. ah~ missed the chance. i hope pril could show something from F1 to me when she comes back. and when will she come back? please get some goodbye kiss from beloved clearwater and come meet your friend who's in desperate need of companion here.

when this mind is flaching back the memories of you.
this mind tells me you are such an unforgettable person.
anger and hatred wouldn't last for us.
was it you, or was it just me thinking we'll be okay this way
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
movie
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
a new routine
finally i got my watches fixed! i knew i've made a right choice to fix it down here, much cheaper. :] just that if i postpone it for few more days it may be totally broken and can't be fixed anymore, according to the guy. lucky me.
with dad and bro, went down to Ace hardware after dinner for some home tools and supermarket to shop for daily needs. and, next station Fountain! wew, i miss the peach-melba there :p the feeling is heavenly.
on the way down to the exit, we bumped into dad's mate, where the wife looked shocked when she saw me. she kept pinching my cheeks and caressing my hair. -.= although the last time we met was 4 years ago, she should be aware that i can grow up, too! my gosh, she still treats me like a lil' girl. i kinda miss her self-way-too-exposed style though.
btw, found a new caffeine fix in some RD mags. it's different from the usual latte, it's a caffeine-rich brew made form the leaves of a South American holly shrub. it is said to provides stimulating effect of coffee minus the 'jitterness'. taste? stewed hay? hmm.. ~.~ i don't mind trying. xp
word of the day:
gauche (read: GOASH)
meaning: tactless, lacking social polish.
eg: She reacted to his gauche questions by simply changing the subject.
Monday, September 22, 2008
another one
now i am starting to feel how i depend so much on internet! technology can made us insane sometimes. i wonder 20 years from now, are we gonna be marrying an artificial intelligence. if it really happens, then the phrase Love is Blind is undeniably true. lol.
today reflects me so much, spending most of the hours in the wonderland, sleeping in a full air-con room during hot weather is the most comfy thing, indeed. caught a movie, D-war after dinner. Kinda nice, but felt that the ending part should be improved. xp
and tomorrow, is the election day for the leader of province. wow, i got a voice, which means that i can vote. the weird thing is i haven't even register fo signing up my KTP, they give me a voting voice. haha. confused, on who to vote. have not been keeping track on these things lately ~.~
Friday, September 19, 2008
bored
anw, besides that, seems like i've nothing better to do. sadly, there' only few people i can whom i can reach and get to meet up. reunions are so impossible. nobody is left behind. people are flying all over the world. they don't seem to like their hometown anymore. some studying overseas and other national universities, others working all over the world. loneliness is killing me!
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
fish therapy

fish therapy? sounds abit *ahemp* haha. but u gotta try it. this is so fun.you will love the feeling of tickleness when the fish mess with your skin. apart form that, the fish eat dead skin from your body. i was quite surprised to find out that they have it here in one of the shopping malls. and trust me, you won't get bitten! you'll love it! it is like having pedicure =)
it's available at Sentosa for Singapore! =)
and
buat Pekanbaru: Mall Ciputra Seraya Lt.1 Rp.50.000,- per org, durasi 20 menit
so damn excited~
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
comment on prediction
please i have alot of things to do still, i still wanna be alive, i haven't repent yet (praying hard.......)
the prediction
Subject: Fw: GEMPA 17/09/08
From: nelly.rusli@indofood.co.id
Date: Thu, 11 Sep 2008 11:27:04 +0700
Prayer is the only answer. Only God knows
Kita berdoa yu semoga hal ini tidak terjadi,kalopun terjadi semoga sudah dipersiapkan antisipasinya biar tidak
banyak korban.Amin.
Culiah wrote: Gak tahu akan terjadi
atau tidak sebaiknya banyak berdoa saja......
Subject: [thelightmagz]
"Informasi GEMPA 17 September 2008 Indonesia Menunggu Datangnya Gempa Dahsyat lebih Dari 9 SR. Baru saja diberitakan oleh TV CNN pada tanggal 17 September 2008 tentang Datangnya Gempa Dahsyat yang lebih atau sekitar 9 SR disekitar Sumatra Barat. CNN melakukan peninjauan khusus bersama pemburu Gempa dari California Technology Institute.Pemburu gempa ini adalah geoloog dari CalTech yang meneliti semua gempa2 yang muncul di Indonesia terutama yang terakhir ini yang katanya mengakibatkan kerak bumi melipat sehingga menimbulkan gempa sekitar 7 SR lebih baru2 ini ................................................"
Drs. Ir. Anton A. Nangoy, MBA *
Monday, September 15, 2008
home sweet home
and my car! it ran out of petrol yesterday, in the middle of the road! the mechanic found out that the petrol indicator was not even working! haiz~ we are stuck in arengka, luckily few stones away from the new house. a friend offered a lift back to the house, and we got to cancel whole appointments for the day. sad. T.T
today is sooo tiring and physically sucking all my energy! moving those things ain't easy, i just moved to a rented room few months ago, and now moving big piles of thang to a new house! argh..killing me.
apparently, the new house is kinda nice, i love the way they decorated it. and most importantly, my room, i love the curtain, thanks Mom! =)
Saturday, September 13, 2008
changi
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Tuesday, September 09, 2008
not for the weak heart
some shots in the video. bungeeey..
peace!

never enjoy a view in this kind of angle

man, i have been trying to do this kind of fido dido hairstyle, i never succeed and look at my hair! aww~
thanks alot for you guys, it has been a fun day. thank you for the early present! =D
Saturday, September 06, 2008
always be a good day
and for the outing photos, i guess you can find it at chen huan blog.lol. i guess i don't have to upload anymore. you gotta take a look at the shots we took at esplanade roof terrace, huany's lion hair while jumping and my face as if being punched sideways as the result of her lioness aura. ah~ that's the best way i can describe it. lol.
anyway today there's this thing called "60 secs of fame" organised by city harvest. somehow similar to one minute of fame-kids central. the only difference is the participants are mostly teenagers. and im quite fascinated by the 13-year-old-boy showing off is talent by playing away with his YOYO in different unique movement, and a guy that memorised 50 handphone numbers. he remembered them well! there's dances and singing too. quite entertaining!
it's almost 10 by the time we enjoyed our KFC meal and took some fun pictures afterwards.
the most unexciting part is going home. boonlay to bedok! awh, definitely not a good one. i've to change from bus to MRT and back to bus again.
tomorrow tomorrow, i am stressed uo for tomorrow.
firstly, because i have to get up early. dawn. not even morning. ~.~
secondly, nesty is leaving! argh~ you are still young, nes. why do you leave me so soon? this life is still long way to go for me.... T.T
ahemph* i'm sorry i mean she is leaving for Singapore. she's going back to Padang! maybe for a month or so..
and guess what? tomorrow i need to wake up and go back to boon lay for NTU by 8.45am! the dumbest thing i would ever do. huany, you're right.i guess we should just buy some sleeping bags and spend our night there.
i haven't even close my eyes and not sure whether i am having a nightmare, well thanks for tomorrow, i have already had one.

























